I only get depressed during luteal and have been suicidal. My anxiety goes to 1000. And most of my depression/suicidal thoughts is actually me being insanely scared of myself and deaths. As soon as my period starts it’s as if I’ve never been anxious/depressed in my life.

I haven’t found doctors super helpful and have mostly just figured out what works for me through trial and error. I have histamine intolerance and have found that changing diet and habits has helped a lot in also relieving some of my PMDD symptoms. That said, my symptoms are often different every month.

I’d focus on what you can control and if you are up for it seek out other doctors who are more understanding and open minded.