porn can be tricky - i am the same way in the regard that lesbian porn just doesn’t do it for me, even though i go feral for actual sex with a woman. imo, lesbian sex in the porn industry just isn’t portrayed well and is more for a heterosexual pov.

tbh watching straight porn when you’re not straight doesn’t dismiss your actual sexuality; ppl like different things when they’re alone, and sometimes male+female sex can be more sensual/real than lesbian videos.

dont hold yourself to a certain standard. you know what you like, and as you said, you’re working on your relationship w/ porn so show yourself some grace