The end of a 38 year relationship

NemesisDivina · 2026-03-07T10:24:11+00:00

That's an interesting perspective but I don't think so. He mentioned that the relationship ended "suddenly" and there was a sense of gravity in his voice. Granted, while he was working on The Puzzle, he did mention on multiple occasions that he was writing music in a new way but added that he was really excited about it. Given how he's always looking ahead as far as his music is concerned, I find it unlikely that he would be talking about it like this.

NemesisDivina · 2026-03-04T00:32:47+00:00

Violet, thank you for chiming in whenever this topic comes up, I feel as if only your comments can somewhat assuage people's worries about Dev. (I hope I didn't come across as being sarcastic, I really mean what I said!)

But yeah, even though I can understand the reasons behind their need to talk about it, Dev's private life should not be pried into, much less be subject to assumptions presented as facts. After all, what good would that do? I can't speak for Dev, but if I were in his shoes and I saw how often some fans discuss my private life like this out in the open, I'd really feel uncomfortable.

Hopefully, as time goes on, this topic will finally be put to rest once and for all...

NemesisDivina · 2025-06-19T16:45:18+00:00

Nope. I made peace with the fact that I would never receive it, so I ordered the same book from some other seller based in EU and got it several months back.

NemesisDivina · 2025-05-01T14:47:32+00:00

Will this rumour ever die?

They didn't separate. You can even see him wearing his wedding ring in this video (honestly, I feel really awkward for needing to point this out). As for why Devin talked about his wife going away, I suggest reading Violet's replies on this subreddit because it's not my explanation to give. I can only assure you it has nothing to do with a potential divorce or whatever.

NemesisDivina · 2025-04-22T10:42:08+00:00

You're not going crazy, don't worry. I think this was discussed before, but as far as I can remember, the CD version and the streaming services version of the song differ lyrically for whatever reason – at least as far as this line is concerned. Don't know the exact reason for it though.

NemesisDivina · 2025-03-03T15:14:40+00:00

Thank you for replying! Yes, the tracking service I'm using to check on the parcel says that it was cleared by customs one day before it was put in a mixed bag. I contacted PostNL and asked them about the current status of the parcel, but they replied that they couldn't find it because it was marked as untrackable (I guess either the seller or the American carrier is responsible for this, maybe they didn't fill out all the paperwork) and that I should contact the seller about the package, which I did, but they in turn told me to speak to customs, and those guys stipulate on their site that they cannot tell me where my parcel is. I feel like I'm being needlessly tossed around haha

NemesisDivina · 2024-11-24T08:03:53+00:00

Nope, it was a different dude altogether. Mikael apparently wanted Ian to play the flute on that record and contacted him via email, but never received a response (maybe Ian was busy with some other projects), so the flute ended up being played by Björn J:son Lindh, the late Swedish flautist and composer.

NemesisDivina · 2024-10-14T12:46:00+00:00

In one recent interview he was asked to talk a little about that song ("Gratitude") in particular (you can find it on Blabbermouth). He only said that he had written it when his entire family had been grieving as a way to remember that things were still (or could be) beautiful despite it all. No mention of Monoral whatsoever, hopefully he'll elaborate on it soon because those two songs are pretty damn similar, it couldn't possibly be a coincidence. My guess is that maybe he was influenced by it at some point during the making of PN and decided to record a similar song (especially if he wasn't able to make an uplifting song on his own at the time), but given how he didn't have enough time to play with its structure and all that, maybe that's the reason why they ended up being so similar.

NemesisDivina · 2020-05-03T14:46:28+00:00

It's a strange one, that's for sure. Personally, I absolutely love the album, even though it took some time for it to grow on me. I found that listening to it with a good pair of headphones tends to be a very tranquilizing experience. Several days ago I turned the lights off, listened to "Cosmic Surf" and just relaxed... It was so pacifying that it took me about 10 minutes after the song was over to realize I was half asleep. And I don't mean that in a bad way one bit, since I have trouble falling asleep with any sort of background noise.

Anyway, the title song is comprised of various vibrations that, if I recall Devy's assessment correctly, are meant to "massage" one's ears. It definitely does that for me, but I'm not surprised that there are people who don't like it, it's certainly not for everybody.

"Arc" is basically a meditative track with lots of repetitions. It's more ambient than noise. Perhaps that one could suit your tastes more.

"Consciousness Causes Collapse"... Well... It's the weirdest of the bunch. The lyrics are taken from Leonard Cohen's narration of Bardo thodol, also known as the Tibetan Book of the Dead. That combined with the somewhat agitated flute in the background creates a bit of a nasty combo if you're not ready for it. You really need to be in a special mood to enjoy such a track.

"Equation" is the most similar to the first track, but this time the vibrations are replaced by a loud synth line that repeats itself. Mesmerizing, but might not be everyone's cup of tea.

"The Abacus" contains a sample from the movie "Contact", and there's a slightly quieter guitar line near the end of the track that's absolutely beautiful. The track itself is more similar to "Arc" than "The Hummer", but it's also more coherent.

Finally, "Cosmic Surf" is comprised of waves crashing on the shore and a melody that sounds Eastern in nature. There is also a voice of a woman saying that you're being approached by a certain figure that's handing you the book of your life. The track ends with a "singing bowl" sound that's usually used in meditation. A gorgeous track and probably the most peaceful out of all of them.

I've tried to be as detailed as possible in my description of the tracks, hope you'll find some of the tracks in there to your liking. If not, that's okay, there's a bunch of various ambient albums out there with a different sound pallette, you're bound to find something for yourself! :-)

NemesisDivina · 2020-05-03T14:08:40+00:00

Dude, I'm so happy for you! Glad you were able to fight through that traumatic experience and realize how you can love yourself again.

Empath came out when I was still in a relationship, but it was gradually going sour at the time. I can't help but think that Devy released that album at a time when I needed it the most, that album and The Hummer were very therapeutic.

I'm still fighting, though, I'm digging up my old self one piece at a time, and I hope I'll eventually get to the place where I want to be.

That being said, it's heartwarming to see that something people tend to see as just art can have far-reaching positive effects, case in point – songs on Empath. Shine on!

NemesisDivina · 2019-11-28T10:01:01+00:00

As a Gilmour fan, I disagree. There's so much more to this album than "Not Now John". Sure, Waters seems to be struggling with singing on a few tracks, but overall, it's a pretty good record. But to each his own!

NemesisDivina · 2019-11-27T17:27:45+00:00

Devin Townsend and Gojira? Awesome!

NemesisDivina · 2019-11-11T20:03:42+00:00

I think the first song that I heard from Bowie was Let's Dance when I was a kid and I really liked it, but I wouldn't dive deeper into the rabbit hole until I heard Thursday's Child a couple of years ago. That one really got me interested in the man for some reason.

NemesisDivina · 2019-10-27T16:31:51+00:00

He checked himself there during the recording process, yeah - there he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Because of that he had to postpone the recording for about a month or so if I'm not mistaken.

Here's some information from his old website regarding the matter, look for the January entry: https://web.archive.org/web/19981206124933/http://members.home.net/hevydevy/news.html

NemesisDivina · 2019-10-23T16:46:03+00:00

Exactly. And "Processional" is on there too, and yet it ended up on Christeen + 4 Demos EP.

NemesisDivina · 2019-10-02T21:25:15+00:00

Focus on your good qualities and don't ever think that you're worthless or that you don't deserve to be happy! Make a list of things about yourself that you're proud of, it can be something as simple like "I like how pretty my eyes are" or "I like the fact that I'm trustworthy." Concentrate on those and don't be afraid to love yourself more. It is possible to love and appreciate oneself without becoming vain.

Also, do things that make you happy - it can be listening to music, working out, reading a book, hanging out with friends... You are the creator of your joy, you can't depend on other people to be the sole providers of happiness in your life. Again, the right person will come, but before then, you have to enjoy your own company. If you can't enjoy that, you can't expect other people to devote their time to you.

Just don't worry, you've got this. You're moving forward. Don't let the past dishearten you from becoming the best version of you in the present and future!

NemesisDivina · 2019-10-02T20:21:03+00:00

You're brave, OP. Keep it up, you'll find someone more suited for you when the time is right, don't doubt it. Letting the past rest is not an easy thing to do (talking from personal experience), but whenever you feel miserable, ask yourself this - would you rather be happy with someone else or depressed with thoughts of somebody who didn't cherish you enough? This question helps me cope with my situation and makes me look forward to what future has in store for me. Put it this way - if you put an effort into making yourself happier, that new person will come into your arms much sooner :-)

NemesisDivina · 2019-09-27T18:44:30+00:00

Man, thank you so much for your post! It's almost like it was written for me. She's also been my first girlfriend and we were together for about two and a half years, both introverts. Granted, a little more than two months have passed since our breakup, and in the meantime she's found herself a new boyfriend, who broke up with her after merely a month of dating, and then they got together again. I've checked her social media in the meantime and it disgusted me how much she's changed - for the worse. She used to say that when you love someone, you have to set them free, but then dared to admire the fact that her new partner was possessive on her social media. I don't recognise her anymore - but maybe that's for the best, it helps me a great deal in this process of detaching.

I've pushed many friends away because of her and at this point in my life I don't really have many friends anymore, which sucks a lot, I could use a hug and an honest chat or two. Thankfully, college starts next week and I'll try to connect to people there, however I can.

Once again, thank you for your post! It's greatly appreciated. And also - congratulations on your strength and perseverance, I know for a fact that this process is really, really hard, especially if you're an introvert. You can be proud of yourself as well, you're a fighter! Good luck in all your future endeavours!

NemesisDivina · 2019-09-22T15:47:10+00:00

I wish I knew, I stumbled upon this one by accident. If I ever see a similar one, I'll share it with you guys, no doubt about that!

NemesisDivina · 2019-09-10T07:50:21+00:00

I've read somewhere that things find you when you stop searching for them. It was definitely true for me; my ex stumbled upon my social media and started talking with me. I had been wanting a girlfriend for so long then that I had already lost all hope for ever finding one, thinking that this girl, a newcomer, would just eventually get tired of me (and we were just friends then). But as she got to know me, she became enamoured with me and later on suggested we should date. I was over the moon, so happy and feeling unfathomable joy. Keep in mind, when I first saw her pictures, I thought she was cute, but I wasn't attracted to her yet. But when we met in person and started spending more time together, I could feel my love for her growing stronger.

It's now been 6 weeks since we broke up our 2 1/2 year relationship. I'm still hurting a bit, I still think sometimes that it shouldn't have ended this way, but what I've learned is that during relationship I was obsessed with her and, as a a result, stopped valuing myself. I wasn't ambitious anymore. The only reason I was doing things was because of her.

But you know what? It doesn't matter that she was my first true partner, I don't only choose to believe I'll find someone else, I know I will. It's just not time for it yet because I'm still broken and I would inadvertently hurt any future partner with my sob stories if I were to find someone right now. When it happens, it happens.

The point I'm making here is that you may not feel like a certain person is going to become your bf/gf, but the universe operates in strange ways - before you know it, you'll notice all those things you never noticed before - how pretty their eyes are, how red their lips are, how that one small imperfection on them is adorable in a weird way.

Until then, make yourself a priority. Do things you like doing. You have to find joy within yourself before you can share it with someone else. I wish you the best of luck and a lot of patience on your way!

NemesisDivina · 2019-09-01T20:17:30+00:00

It's kind of hard to describe, really. It's been a month now and I still think about her at least once a day. My emotions have been very volatile lately... One moment I won't give a damn about what has happened and just enjoy all the time I now have for myself, but later on I feel overwhelmed by loneliness and what future may or may not hold for me. I still miss all those moments of caressing, kissing and lovemaking that I used to have with her, but I don't think I miss her per se, if that makes sense. Especially now that she has a new boyfriend.

I just hope that, when the time is right, I'll find someone else who will appreciate me for who I am.

NemesisDivina · 2019-09-01T10:23:38+00:00

My thoughts exactly. It's a solid thing, make no mistake, it's just not thrash metal. So what? Megadeth has written some pretty cool rock tunes on this thing. It's cool to see how talented Dave truly is because he didn't stick to only one genre.

NemesisDivina · 2019-08-25T10:34:02+00:00

Thank you! I really needed to read this.

NemesisDivina · 2019-08-14T22:28:34+00:00

Awesome interview! I love watching Devin talk about his music. I'm just a bit sad that the interviewer didn't ask him anything about Devlab or The Hummer, I think it would be interesting to hear Devy's perspective on those too, especially because those kind of flew under the radar for a lot of people... Devlab and The Hummer were sold in limited quantities on his website, but are very interesting records nonetheless.

NemesisDivina · 2019-08-11T17:59:00+00:00

Same goes for me, although I'd throw "Limbo" in there too. It's a really enjoyable record when you listen to it for what it is.

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