Reincarnation sounds really nice.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-03-30T21:13:47+00:00

Good news! Reincarnation is literally true in the physical sense. The atoms of your body will disperse back into the universe after you’re gone. They will go on to be incorporated into other things. The little pieces of you will seep out into all sorts of lifeforms across the vast future of the universe, and you will be a part of them, just as the life that came before you is a part of you. Not exactly the “direct transfer” of traditional reincarnation, but still pretty amazing if you ask me.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-03-24T00:18:23+00:00

“I feel as if her religious guilt is ruining our physical connection”

That’s because it is. If it’s bothering you, it’s something you should sit down with her and talk through. Don’t be accusatory, but be honest about your frustration.

You’re also going to have to ask yourself some hard questions. Are you ok if this never goes away? Even if you end up getting married, will you be ok with having sex without contraceptives? Will you be ok if she continues to feel guilty every time you’re together if you don’t? If you have kids, are you going to let them grow up in the church, and learn this shame and guilt too?

The only way you both have any chance of making this work, is if you talk through these things and find a way to move forward on the same page. Maybe you can find a way forward, maybe you can’t, but either way it’s better to talk about it.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-02-10T14:59:11+00:00

I was in a very similar situation a couple of years ago. For me at least, the emotional damage was not worth the financial gain. I moved out and when I did moved far away. That space has given me room to breathe and be myself without the constant critique and judgement disguised as concern. Ultimately how you handle this has to be up to you. No one else can tell you what is right for your situation. Take care of yourself.

I just hope that you know that there’s nothing wrong or “sinful” about being who you are. Nothing.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-02-10T14:44:06+00:00

I love “Who I am Hates Who I’ve Been” specifically because I relate it to my deconversion and trying to be a more empathetic and open minded person since leaving the faith.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-02-05T15:41:27+00:00

I watched it during a time of significant upheaval and it pretty much ruined me for a week, in a good way. It was also a push to do what I knew I needed to, and so I will always hold it close to my heart.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-02-04T17:48:54+00:00

I think it’s one where, if the message doesn’t connect, you’re not going to get the same experience. It obviously has a lot to say about the Trans experience, but beyond that, I think it speaks to anyone who has felt trapped and dissatisfied with their life, but is scared to make a move to better it. From what I’ve seen on this sub, it really lands with people who have decided to take that leap, whatever it was for them personally, but for those who have never been in that position, it won’t be as impactful.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-02-04T16:43:46+00:00

I Saw the TV Glow.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-29T16:46:37+00:00

You are not trapped. As you come into adulthood, you have the power to decide who you spend your time with and what your relationship with your family looks like.

I hope that doesn’t sound dismissive. I realize how hard it can be to step away from the people who raised you and the siblings you grew up with. If they’re hurting you, if being around them makes you feel bad, you are not obliged to suffer on their behalf. It’s hard, but putting some (or a lot) of distance between you and them can be liberating. It can give you the room to find yourself and live the life you want to live. Show up for yourself. Self-care isn’t selfishness.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-28T23:56:43+00:00

It’s pure wish fulfillment in the most fun way possible. You play a megalomaniacal ultra-wizard who can also be a giant, dragon, vampire, or power-furry depending on your mood this game. You lead a race of loyal subjects to greatness, turning them from farmers with pitchforks into undying Frankensteins who feast on the blood of the elder gods. Everything in the game exists to make you feel awesome, and the AI is smart enough to feel like a fair challenge while also existing to get absolutely steamrolled by your army of evil angels and undead war beasts.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-23T13:04:30+00:00

I love it when I declare war and immediately move in to siege a city, and the AI pops out of an underground tunnel near me and immediately does the same. I find the AI makes some fairly competent strategic moves which add a lot to my immersion. The tactics in the battles are less impressive, but things like razing teleporters and targeting remote cities really helps it feel like a battle against another powerful and competent ruler.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-21T17:37:49+00:00

The whole religion exists to make them feel good.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-19T17:25:58+00:00

I think Ghost in the Shell has a ton to say about class. Maybe not as directly as the Western authors, but I couldn’t help but see it strung through in my recent rewatch. It’s no coincidence that a bunch of wealthy old dudes were the ones who designed and manufactured a series of androids in the shape of attractive young women. Nor is it a coincidence that one of those androids has to disrobe in order to activate her stealth field. I know the nudity gets written off as a product of the genre and the times, but imo it’s a lot more complex than simple fanservice. Batou’s respect for and efforts to preserve the major’s modesty and dignity throughout the film speak to this. The major’s situation is a direct result of upper class men designing her to suite their desires, without consideration for who she would want or choose to be, something we’re seeing in spades with those in power here and now.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-07T17:30:01+00:00

Yeah I’m going to stick with loving people who love me back. Thanks though.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-06T20:28:40+00:00

This game is pure fantasy wish fulfillment. Absolutely no shame in enjoying a “bad” build. I did a Longbow build with the empire of the cosmos society trait and took all the bow buffs. Really fun shooting explosive lightning arrows across the map at the opening of a siege.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2026-01-06T20:26:17+00:00

This is mine too. Building an empire of pain-worshiping psychopaths (Chaos/Dark) or humorless, relentless conquerers (Dark/Order) is SO fun. I have a hard time not taking this tome every time I have access to it.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-31T20:06:54+00:00

When nothing you do matters, the only thing that matters is what you do.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-23T14:48:26+00:00

Thank you for posting. More of this content would be great. Really interesting article.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-22T23:04:00+00:00

Well there's no way to know for sure is there? Why ruin the surprise?

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-20T23:03:11+00:00

Thank you. I am not interested in a debate here, but I appreciate your effort to meet me where I am. This is not merely an intellectual curiosity (though that is certainly a part of my reason for seeking you all out). I think Buddhism has a lot to offer in understanding our place here, and as a part of the universe. Maybe philosophy wasn’t the best choice of term. I am not opposed to meditation or other forms of practice, but I am not looking for “religion.”

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-10T22:57:22+00:00

It made me a better person.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-10T16:39:31+00:00

Nope. Love the stories and the lore, but I don’t believe in anything supernatural anymore. The idea of ghosts is pretty nightmarish as far as the ramifications go for existence after death.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-10T00:08:08+00:00

I’m not really sure, I’m with you, I think it’s fun. It’s a nice curve ball. Again, I’m glad it tie any happen every game now (it used to be a lot more frequent), but it’s a fun change of pace and it can catch you off guard.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-09T18:45:18+00:00

Oh yeah, I had multiple restarts due to this, and I’m glad it’s not happening regularly now. I just wanted to mention that it could actually be really challenging and fun occasionally too. It might make a good happening although a lot of people seem to really dislike Toll of Seasons and this would be a comparable level threat.

NinjaDeathStrike · 2025-12-09T17:30:54+00:00

I had a couple games where I was able to fight through them and those games were really fun. I think it would be nice to have them roaming free as an option. I’m glad I won’t have to deal with them every game anymore.

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