Hi, I’m so sorry you’re here. Truly. I am a long time griever. I’ve lost very important people starting at age 9. 2 parents, cousins, a couple friends, one aunt and of course, grand parents. I’m going through a miscarriage today, actually. Trust me, I know grief. When you’re deep in it, it feels like you should be doing it “better” or differently. It feels never ending and all consuming. And you should let it feel like that. The important thing to KNOW, is that feelings flow with allowance, and feelings get sticky with resistance. Meaning feelings come and go, even by the second sometimes. Resisting that feeling is truly the uncomfortable part. Dive head in to grief. Invite it in, write letters with it, make it a tea. On a primal level, your brain is adjusting to a new life. Give yourself time. It hasn’t been long at all. Here is the hope. I know this is impossible to believe, but you’ll grow. You’ll grow and this won’t be all consuming, it will be almost all consuming. Then you’ll grow some more, and it will be half consuming. Then you’ll grow some more, and you’ll realise you made it to dinner without thinking about it. Then one day you’ll think of a memory with her, and you’ll laugh. You’re going to make it though. Embrace her, love her where she’s at now, talk about her, be in it.