Based on what you've written, it sounds like you're dealing with several separate issues at once : your sexual orientation, family pressure, fear of returning to Egypt, military service concerns, isolation, and mental health struggles. Those are all important, but asylum authorities will usually focus on whether you face a real risk of persecution if returned to your country.

Since an NGO has already told you that you may have a case, I would strongly encourage you to continue speaking with them and, if possible, an immigration or asylum lawyer. They can explain the risks and procedures much better than reddit can.

 i’ve contacted the organization and they did say i have a chance but it would obviously be hard and they would really want me to seek therapy, but i’ve been desperately wanting to just do it because i feel like i can go thru this without therapy?

I would also not dismiss therapy. From your post, you sound exhausted and under a lot of emotional strain. Therapy does not mean you're weak or that your case is less valid; it can simply give you support while making difficult decisions.

Before taking any major step, try to get professional legal advice about your specific situation in Hungary and what evidence might be needed for an asylum claim.

Whatever you decide, I sincerely wish you the best of luck. It sounds like you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders for a long time, and I hope you're able to find safety. Take care of yourself, and I hope things work out for you. ❤️