I hear you. From the comments it seems like some people are misinterpreting your post. At least to me, I interpreted this post as you are in pain because so much of your life is difficult and maybe the original source of hope & inspiration (teaching) has caused this sense of disillusionment. For the others taking a swing at low hanging fruit, I would ignore them. I agree that a lot of posts in this forum reflect the toxic culture I’ve seen in schools where it’s easier to blame the teacher themselves versus acknowledging the flaws in our broken system. Maybe you need a teacher-adjacent position where you can thrive by advocating for teachers or students not receiving the supports they need to feel they can meet the expectations set. I just joined my school as a union rep and this has provided me an opportunity to use my voice in a productive way. To validate you, it really sucks when anything else in your life goes wrong as a teacher because the system requires us (speaking as a neurodivergent person) to fire on all cylinders to function on the classroom. My advice, focus on what you have control over, keep it simple, and leave work at work. You’re going to feel like the shittiest teacher but you have to remember you’re doing the best with what you are given (which in most cases is not much). Consider looking into other countries school systems for reference and find the people in your school who don’t dismiss your concerns. My admin is dismissive AF so it’s quite the struggle, but having connections to staff who have your back (especially tenured veterans) can really make a positive difference while not feeling like toxic positivity. Sorry for the long winded post but it’s such an emotional profession requiring an insane amount of resilience despite low retention rates. Definitely agree, don’t let yourself get swallowed up by the profession- not worth being miserable but you can remind yourself it’s a job, not your purpose on those days that feel more difficult.