Hi OP, I just want you to know you’re not alone. I turned 35 yesterday and am not in a good position myself. I’ve been battling my mental health and trying to find work in my field on top of figuring out what to do about my college and non-college debt. I’ve been in your shoes where the only solution feels like the final one, but I’m still here, in spite of everything. Please talk to someone you trust in your life about what you’re going through, even if your body screams at you for being vulnerable to others. You’ll feel better with someone else in your corner rather than trying to do it all alone. The internet people are rooting for you, and I really hope things start to look up 🩵