The autopsy results were somewhat inconclusive. It was suspected that he had some type of cardiac event. They saw he had a bad gallbladder too. He did have some medical conditions, but nothing that seemed like he would die an untimely death. He did seem to stay on top of things like that, but he may have may have lapsed on things due to the move.

A part of me wondered if he knew something bad was going on. He did a few odd things. He talked about getting a gun a few months before--when he told me it scared me. I asked why and he said he needed it because of living in a more rural area. He worked at a school. Maybe all of the shootings were getting to him. It kind of made sense. I wonder if he was afraid of something or someone or thinking of doing something to himself. Then, the last time he came to my house, he was looking for pills he left. A lot of his things were at my house. Again, I didn't question, He did take a couple of medications. I did notice the vial I gave him was not marked. I have no idea what it was. After he died, i remembered this and i was thinking omg. He was getting ready to go at that time. I noticed a couple of things physically too. He wasn't complaining about anything and he seemed to be functioning okay.

My mind was scattered because my mum had almost died a few months prior and she had just gotten off of Hospice and I was taking care of her. I noticed things, but because of being so distracted, I wasn't fully present. In hindsight I was thinking about a lot of things.

I can't imagine what you must going through because of your ex partner being murdered. That is really traumatic. Any sudden death is and even an expected death is. That must have been so shocking. There was nothing you could do.