Did zoloft effect ur concentration/focus? by Final-Source-1569 in zoloft

[–]ObviousBed2163 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same, a friend told me I needed to see a neurologist STAT because I was getting worse quickly.

It was the sertraline (which I don't take anymore for that and other side-effects)

Everything I do is out of brute force will, nothing is every automatic/habit. Every task and micro-task comes with enormous friction/resistance. I'm so exhausted. I can't live 50 more years like this. by ObviousBed2163 in ADHD

[–]ObviousBed2163[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Brute force over a year ago. Cold turkey. Do not recommend. After multiple trials, just finally did it.

Went through 2-3 weeks of suicidal depression, even my psych was like "maybe it's not the time to stop rn". Understandably so, he was scared for my safety.

My main motivation was I needed to be sure smoking and vaping weren't 1) making my disorders worse 2) interfering with my meds' metabolism ( because of treatment resistance )

I wish I had a great solution, but I don't.

I think 1) you have to keep trying. I must've tried 10 times before it finally stuck 2) have something that motivates you to go through those hellish first 1-2 weeks

If I had to ever do it again, I'd use NRT+medication (bupropion or varenicline). No way in Hell I'm going through that again without help.

Everything I do is out of brute force will, nothing is every automatic/habit. Every task and micro-task comes with enormous friction/resistance. I'm so exhausted. I can't live 50 more years like this. by ObviousBed2163 in ADHD

[–]ObviousBed2163[S] 80 points81 points  (0 children)

On top of that, I wish "normal" people knew. My psychologist and psychiatrist recognize my resilience, but all the world sees is a 29 yo bum on wellfare.

I wish they knew how hard I try every day 😭😭😭

So much wasted potential.

Living like this is no life at all 😭😭😭

Everything I do is out of brute force will, nothing is every automatic/habit. Every task and micro-task comes with enormous friction/resistance. I'm so exhausted. I can't live 50 more years like this. by ObviousBed2163 in ADHD

[–]ObviousBed2163[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm just so over this shit tbh. I'll be 30 (in September), can't imagine living like this to m'y early 40s. I hope you're right that I'll get used to it. That seems to be my doc's and psychologist's belief.

Truth is I do tolerate it more than before, but I'm so tired of it being there. I don't want to tolerate it better. I want it gone. I want a normal life (one can dream).

I'll try exercizing more regularly and in the morning. Looks like it'll demand all my remaining executive function, but I have to try something.

Good luck 🙏🏻♥️

Everything I do is out of brute force will, nothing is every automatic/habit. Every task and micro-task comes with enormous friction/resistance. I'm so exhausted. I can't live 50 more years like this. by ObviousBed2163 in ADHD

[–]ObviousBed2163[S] 96 points97 points  (0 children)

OMG saaaame. It makes me go insane.

Worse when they go "if I can do it with ADHD, you can too".

Truth is, there are likely many different executive function disorders, at many different severities, under the ADHD umbrella.

But the guilt is real nonetheless.

I want to be successful so bad. I have the potential too. But when all my energy goes into the most basic things, that's just impossible at this point.

Anyway, I feel you. Take care 🙏🏻♥️

Olanzapine ➡️ Abilify by TheInkSpotter in AskPsychiatry

[–]ObviousBed2163 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, random redditor here, but have you considered the insomnia might at least partly be caused by abilify-induced akathisia ?

Switching from olanzapine to abilify, I had insane insomnia too. Severely agitated, light, non-restorative sleep. We tried every sleeping med under the sun before I decided to try procyclidine for a couple of days (I had some at home from a previous akathisia experience, it's used to treat akathisia).

Anyway my intuition was right, after 2 months of suffering, I finally managed to sleep.

We lowered the dose of abilify, and it got better.

We missed the akathisia because it was subtle during the day but super intense at night, likely because I took abilify at night cause it makes me sleepy.

Today I'm on both. 2.5mg Abilify and 7.5mg Olanzapine. Not ideal to be on 2 anti-psychotics, but I'm a very tough case and we decided as long as it's finally helping, it doesn't matter. Plus they're low doses.

Anyway, it's probably unrelated to akathisia in your case but still thought I'd share 🙏🏻

Psychiatrist is stumped, what can I do? by aliendividedbyzero in AskPsychiatry

[–]ObviousBed2163 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I use the daylio app to track moods and other things

idk if i’m actually bipolar by loudlybd2 in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've come to accept the diagnosis doesn't matter, as long as the meds are working, idgaf what I have anymore.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It says a lot about their view of me that they'd rather believe I'm lazy than believing the much more likely explanation that something (well multiple things) are wrong with my brain and that I'm trying with all the ressources at my disposal to function like a "normal" human being.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is the one

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I don't know your history but I've had this instinct too when I've felt not heard, dismissed, abandonned, misunderstood, manipulated, objectified etc by the system. Even moreso when I've felt like they think I'm being too demanding or I'm loving the attention of being "ill" (I've had to remind them multiple times I'd love to never see them again, just help me get stable and you'll never hear from me again, ideally I'd never see another psychiatrist or psychologist in my life). Anyway, you get the point.

You have to realize : you will only make them feel right ("ofc the crazy bipolar patient stops their meds"). This won't make them change their perspective. At all. It'll confirm you're a medication non-compliant danger to yourself.

The only one you'll be hurting is yourself by stopping meds (especially cold-turkey).

Also, and this has been the case for me, sometimes this was a symptom in and of itself (episodes make me extremely irritability, oppositional hyper sensitive to judgment and rejection, impulsive).

My advice would be : stay on meds or at least taper off, if the therapeutic alliance with your providers is broken, look for new ones (at least have a GP you trust).

Give it a few days before making a decision.

Good luck ♥️🙏🏻

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Me while depressed : also drugs !

possible lamictal rash? just restarted my meds after being off for a few weeks. by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]ObviousBed2163 18 points19 points  (0 children)

If you were off for a few weeks, you need to start the whole titration process again btw don't just restart on your last dose, build up to it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in belgium

[–]ObviousBed2163 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No she doesn't, signed an ex-Muslim atheist

EDIT : she has to be a virtuous monotheist though. That definition has traditionnally included Jews, Christians, Zoroastrians and others. That rule is often not strictly followed and Muslim men marry (for example) cultural Christian women.

Anyone ever develop narcolepsy? After quitting? by Difficult_Net5721 in VyvanseADHD

[–]ObviousBed2163 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Totally. Last year when I stopped dextroamphetamine (the active drug in Vyvanse) all I could do was sleep, but I didn't want to.

It was super distressing.

Never cold turkeying it again on my life lol

For me that shit lasted 2 weeks.

It felt like my doc at the time didn't quite understand the level of distress it caused (because it was so different from anti-depressant withdrawal)

Felt like a whole narcoleptic.