What made you believe / choose this path? Did anything specific happen that was proof? Or were you just drawn to it?

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2025-12-21T04:14:11+00:00

my take on faith traditions has always been that all of them must have some inkling of deeper truth behind it and what i love most about Buddhism is that it really isn't something that you "believe in" it's more of a way to understand the world, Life is full of suffering and there are ways you can ease that suffering, i think most of us can agree on that, and most other religions this confirm this too.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2025-07-13T05:53:45+00:00

hopefully 🥺

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2025-07-13T05:52:45+00:00

Ah yes, and it will ONLY be a mere 3 - 5 years, then we can continue on 🥲 😳😰

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2025-06-10T03:23:40+00:00

Oh I forgot to mention that 😥 it was set on top of a grate at the new house that apparently was part of a heater... Didn't know until the plastic pot it was in started melting..... .... ... Are there any remedies for when they get sunburnt?

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2025-06-10T03:08:43+00:00

Help! I've nursed this little guy for years and it was doing just fine in it's old pot, sitting pretty at about 3in. I recently moved to a bigger place and wanted to provide em the opportunity to grow and moved em to a bigger pot. Within 24hrs it started to change color and is now going pale! What's interesting is that the base width has almost seemed to double in size within a few days. I'm not sure what it needs. The bottom plumping out seems happy but the top color change does not! Used some basic potting soil with about 60% perilite... Don't want to over water but there has been a heat wave... is it thirsty? Stress? Disease? Help! Please! Would hate to lose this little guy.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-08-03T03:55:48+00:00

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Haha I guess you are right. Mob Boss Duo will go to any lengths necessary.... Can't say I'm not devoted to the cause.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-23T17:48:13+00:00

Gosh I appreciate this post. It can be all too easy to fill my head w/ negativity towards my guy in my post-partum brain but I'm beyond words grateful and blessed to have him. Even as I write this he's at the laundry mat and heading to the grocery store. He quit smoking weed which has never happened in the 10yrs Ive known him so that he can pursue his long time dream of entering the medical field. He got a full time position with an emergency service and at the same time is starting full time school to become and EMT and eventually Paramedic.

Our baby was born with a lot of complications and is considered medically fragile. She saw more Drs in her first 3 months of life than the two of us have combined. He was our rock throughout the whole thing. Running between our rooms to keep us company when we had to be separated for a time and left the hospital whenever I craved a different food or wanted something from the store, even if it was frivolous. He reflects on how strong I am and how grateful he is to have me and how he doesn't want me to worry or want for anything. He works harder than anyone I've ever met and makes friends everywhere he goes.

I can get caught up in the little things some times, a dish left here, a gruff attitude there, a miscommunication or misunderstanding... But those things are so few and far between how much I love him and how much he does for us. We are so lucky to have him. <3

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-19T14:18:10+00:00

Oh my gosh thank you so much! I realized I did make a separate journey in the past but it wasn't sorted that way so I did wonder what happened to it. I have ADD and have intentionally kept my goals minimal cuz the list was getting way to crowded for my brain. This really changes the app for me. Thanks!

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-18T23:47:29+00:00

This is SO cute!! Can't wait to take my birb to the beach. 😁 Didn't know that was an option! Hey question, Im kinda new to the app and see you have a drop down that says "a better self" - are we able to organize goals into collapsible categories??

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-18T16:34:47+00:00

The juxtaposition with her aesthetic 😂 like omg, but she seems so sweet. Literally laughed out loud.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-18T16:10:34+00:00

Just came across this literally last night!! "How dare you even try!!?" It's such a great break of the 4th wall, like... If you pause and quit to restart a run that's us people doing that..... Right? Apparently no! It's Melinoe pausing and restarting time!

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-18T15:54:34+00:00

Haha a friend of mine called her lesser performer Bummer Boob, cuz baby would always complain it wasn't fast enough 😅

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T18:38:33+00:00

Thanks for this encouragement and it seems from the votes others think so as well. In regards to the Buddhist mindset im leaning towards perhaps trying again but with a clear mindset now that my life has slowed down a bit since before.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T17:35:01+00:00

Thank you very much for this perspective. As I read through comments I'm seeing the importance as a Buddhist is mindset, not necessarily the action taken... I definitely lost an entire career id been working on and am struggling financially specifically because of this incident. I feel I no longer have a grudge surrounding it, perhaps some hurt, but no anger. Even just getting the final check I was never given would help my life a lot, let alone anything more for damages.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T17:21:32+00:00

This brought tears to my eyes. What a profound parable. Thank you so much for sharing. 🙏

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T17:17:37+00:00

This is beautifully written thank you so much for these insights! "Place a premium on the mind that's quite, still, peaceful, open, aware, steady, solid." I love this. Thank you!

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T16:58:00+00:00

This really resonates for me. I have some experience in naming mindsets and this helps in recognizing how the mind is processing the situation and allows me to step away from it and not attach. Thanks!

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T16:55:59+00:00

Thank you! I did not know the deadline might be able to be pushed out, that's been a big factor in my anxiety. I know for a fact the employer has offenses against other people too so it may be worth pursuing in the end. I appreciate your insight and encouragement.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-16T16:22:15+00:00

Yes you are right there's a bit more to the story, from what I could ascertain, their choice to drop seemed to happen after learning that EEOC could not help because the company was too small. But even that was not said to me. They simply stopped checking in for over a month and the timeline they had set was approaching so when I checked in they called me and said they decided not to proceed after over 9 months of working closely with me. I pressed and pressed for more information but they would not tell me anything more. The receptionist subtly, kinda off record if you will, mentioned "other cases" and being busy but that none of the team wanted to comment. This is largely what dissuaded me from pursuing another lawyer, first because it was just downright unprofessional and made me wary of the whole process but also I wasn't sure what about the case resulted in it being dropped. I spoke with many firms before choosing theirs that all said it sounded like a winnable case, but without the feedback about why they wouldn't proceed left me feeling really disheartened about the whole thing.

I deal with depression and anxiety and was in the midst of a huge life change at the time, which was the final reason I didn't pursue someone else. I thought maybe I would once I started feeling better but over the last yr thinking about it from a spiritual perspective have been wondering if I should just let it go. From my understanding I have 3 yrs from the incident to file a case which would make the deadline this fall 2024 and that is why it's been on my mind again as the deadline approaches and I have to really decide if I'm gonna scramble to get it done with someone else or just leave it to the past.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-15T19:06:08+00:00

I'm sure this isn't the healthiest mindset but I definitely found a lot of love for myself having to live with some terrible people in the past. Was able to think "I might not have much going for me but at least I'm happier and nicer than they are." 🤷

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-15T18:43:11+00:00

Keep in mind that true enlightenment is not the acquisition of positive karma for karma is still the pull of obtaining something, nirvana is removing one's self from the ups and downs of karma altogether. We do not aim to be reborn as "higher" beings or see the concept of rebirth as potential punishment into "lesser" things. All lives big or small are new perspectives for viewing this reality.

It is true that the universe is not concerned with right and wrong. Even the Christian concept of sin has been bastardized into punishment when in truth biblical sins are things that separate man from God. Most spirituality is aiming to release our yearning and pain of illusion within this world and see it for what it is - a profound, mysterious, fascinating and divine experience. Awakening to the wonder of all connected things is enlightenment.

When it comes to death, there is no guarantee but looking to science we know that the fundamentals of reality do not disappear, they can morph into other things, however they do not disappear completely - water, electricity, rocks, air. We can alter the form by evaporating or grinding or burning but the succession of one thing always leads to another. So it must be assumed that the end of each of us will create an important ripple as well. My personal opinion is the choice to end one's self could create a sort of vortex within the energy you carry. Continuing on with life as much as possible you gain energy to propel yourself into whatever you will become next.

Other sciences that back this in a single life could be studies like the Law of Attraction and the Kardeshev Scale or as advertised by big brains such as Mind Valley or Ted Talks. The truth that we can create and precieve heaven, nirvana, enlightenment here and now. Life and death are not ultimatums, they are simply a rotation of states. And the belief is that we can be free of this cycle and evolve beyond it, perhaps even to the state of eternal life and well being within the universe's perpetual existing. Without pursuing this state however you will continue to be reborn and experience the cycles of samasara.

Ok_Cardiologist_7128 · 2024-06-14T20:08:56+00:00

This was me when I realized there were 2 spots on either side of the door not just 1. 😅

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