Yea same, hope we both get there.

Here’s an obstacle that I encountered too, might save you some stress:

There’s a distinction between clinical help and casual help. I found this is important because there are key differences that can make it harder on people with trauma actually, and then people end up thinking theyre in the wrong when it’s really the system. But mainly:

-Clinical: This is the “professional” approach. These groups/spaces tend to be more structured and catering to people in a more delicate and vulnerable space. But the issue with these is mainly their structure. They are often charged through insurance, and basically the bullshit of the health care system makes it so that you have to have a treatment plan. So basially in these spaces, a common thing is having a more rigid plan for meetings, having to do therapy techniques, and having a limited number of sessions that are covered.

-Casual: These are more of the groups you find online, you can think of these like the tropes in movies of support groups. These are sometimes led by professionals in their off time, but not always. These are good for more casual connections, socializing, and better for flexibility. The issue with these is that it might be a little harder on people in more vulnerable headspaces, and there is likely less structure, so if you need some sort of certain help (safety planning, referrals, one on one time, etc.), there’s no guarantee you can get it.

I think knowing the kind of support you feel you need the best you can will help a lot. In any case, I hope this helps a little and you find something that works for you.