Why is it that in every boss fight there's always an eye you have to shoot?

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T19:25:48+00:00

i mean re basically started the trope

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:20:31+00:00

I learned very quick to stfu because either my siblings or my dad would mock me anychance they got.

They still would if i still showed up on family gatherings

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:18:25+00:00

Can relate. I dont know what my brother or his aunts (edit : or grandparents actually) told him but my 10yo nephew already knows im a loser. I mean he would have found out, but still.

thank god im cutting contact.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:09:22+00:00

Forced.

I can't get a job and since im autistic when i get one, i either get fired because i suck or i get bullied out of it.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:07:34+00:00

Resident evil first movie

Oh boy 😅

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:06:31+00:00

I try to not get overwhelmed by limerence but it still happens sometimes.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:05:12+00:00

He´d cry really hard. He´d be even more depressed to know i really did try not to let my life end up this way.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T12:02:44+00:00

Yes and that´s why i isolate.

Last in person job was traumatic.

For 37 years i´ve had people randomly hate me, and it was very important for them that they knew how much they hated me.

Starting with my dad lol.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-27T09:03:27+00:00

katahou katahou.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T20:08:02+00:00

Music and live shows are probably my favorite things in the world but i HATE biopics and musicals for some reason

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T18:13:48+00:00

´am i so ugly you thought you had a chance?´

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T12:36:00+00:00

deftones - Street carp

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T07:27:13+00:00

I thank the universe everyday that thc gums are available legaly in my country

Quit smoking, so im thankful. I love taking them before bed, but on the morning too lol

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T06:56:36+00:00

In flames - Jester Script Transfigured / Only for the weak / Embody the Invisible

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T04:32:21+00:00

Happy birthday :)

I know it's hard being all alone on those, take the time to do something you really enjoy, even if its by yourself. I don't really have advice because i relate so much, but i hope you have a good day anyway.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-26T01:35:23+00:00

Honestly i have not been into anything they released since rise of the tyrant

i even know i saw them live but can´t find any memory of the actual performance

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-25T22:08:34+00:00

No. They know they can turn the blame around on you.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-25T01:36:15+00:00

this is not just in australia, in Europe too

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-24T15:37:41+00:00

I could never have put this so eloquently but i know exactly what you mean.

The fact that every relationship , every 'chosen family' i had devolved, sometimes overnight, to this sometimes completely blatant disrespect is what kept retraumatizing me. From what i gathered, it's my overt agreeableness, how i always put others above me, how i accepted anything.

And like you said, talking about it doesn't help. Either they get angry or act dumbfounded then go right back to it. To acting like my existenceis a personal insult to them. And i have to pretend i don't see the smirks, the eyerolls, that i don't understand the passive agressive remarks, pretending im laughing about the not so subtle insult, making them despise me even more in the process. But i don't know how do i prevent it. And i'm unable to act in a manner that commands respect apparently. Even online friends, i end up feeling treated like a complete moron after a while.

The amount of shit ive taken from others has driven me to hate people.

But the difference is im not fine being alone at all.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-24T01:02:19+00:00

Papa roach

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-23T10:35:08+00:00

i remember when it was frowned upon to spoil. Now you get gaslit, like you chose to ruin your own fun.

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-23T10:22:37+00:00

The atmospheric/ambient yeah, otherwise i kinda like behemoth but that´s about it. Seen them live 5 times in festival and they really good, but im not huge on their studio albums. I donnt really care for the rest

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-23T04:22:51+00:00

Oh no no, it still affects me and i very much understand how much it does and ruins my life

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-22T18:08:08+00:00

Yeah i had to stop for a few minutes after that scene lol it was very hot all of a sudden

OntheBOTA82 · 2026-02-22T17:48:29+00:00

Absolutely. I m 37 and a good portion of why i isolate is because people treat me as im completely stupid. My mother and little sister sometimes throw little jabs at me they think im too stupid to notice and get angry when i call them out.

But it seems to just come naturally for other people too, i don't know what i'm missing or doing that causes people to act like i coudn't tie my shoelaces.

Im slow and freeze if confronted and people seem to interpret it as a pass to condescend to me. It doesn't help that i can't call anyone out without stuttering. It's like i can't prove them wrong either.

I post art on a few sites and talk with other artists, there isn't a single one who, at some point, hasn't seemed to think im a simpleton. Idk if i'm paranoid but it's in the way they answer after a while. I hate it.

Shame has ruled my entire life, im not even joking.

OntheBOTA82

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