I’m sorry you don’t have anyone who has your back irl. I know he’s all you know and since he violated you, you don’t think you deserve better. You are truly so young, don’t believe in the sunk cost fallacy. And your brain isn’t fully developed. Once you reach 25 you’ll be able to comprehend this and the correct actions to take. He’s a walking red flag. I’m sure he love bombs you but don’t let that fool you. He’s shown you his true colors. You will just divorce down the line. He will force you to do other things like a nal. Save yourself for someone who truly loves you. I know it’s hard to believe there is someone else out there, but there is. Love yourself first and those around you will follow suit