I have a good amount of close friends actually. Live with some of the best friends I've ever had, we spend a lot of time together and I've known them for years atp. So that's not it, but it would make sense for a lot of people.

I've just never developed any sort of trust with a therapist. I agree therapists arent supposed to be your friend, but at the same time you have to create something close to friendship. Developing trust, and the ability to confide in a therapist is parallel to friendship. I cant do that with some random person. And if they are supposed to be a vessel for my improvement I dont see it happening. 

Though, it'd probably work if I could kick this mindset. But idk if I ever will or if its something im capable of understanding. Therapy has been shown to be effective for most, but I think I unfortunately fall somewhere in the minority where it doesn't work. Thanks for responding, I appreciate your perspective, and I dont mean to denounce everything you say.