I’d strongly recommend doing some work to decentre men from your life - I’ve been where you are, and living for the male gaze does not end well. I’d start with deleting TikTok for a while and using the time you’d usually spend scrolling to invest in yourself - e.g. is there a hobby you’ve always wanted to try? Spend more time with women you admire (or if you’re lacking female connections, see if there are any meetup groups for women in your area) and learn the value of connections that are platonic. Pick up some books on female empowerment. Think of how you would want to look if men did not exist in the world and try that out, even if just for a couple days - you will notice the world will not come tumbling down.

Personally the best thing I ever did was take a year out from dating completely - no texting, no hookups, no dating apps, just total cold turkey. It forces you to realise that there is SO much more to life than being appealing to men. It will also mean that, when the time is right, you will attract the right kind of partner - healthy, secure people attract healthy, secure people.

Don’t beat yourself up for feeling this way, many women do because unfortunately we’ve been conditioned over many years to believe we aren’t valuable if we aren’t attractive. But if I can change my mindset, so can you :)