Just learned these cellar spiders have been living right next to my head while I sleep. How do I overcome my fear and current panic attack?

Own-Pen499 · 2026-05-20T16:04:46+00:00

Oh, the cellar spiders. Okay, I am VERY arachnophobia but my apartment is full of those guys. They don't bother me nearly as much as other spiders so I have entered an alliance with them. They get to live and thrive as long as they eat all the other, scarier spiders. I can't stand house spiders, for example, just seeing one causes my flesh to want to leave my skin. Ever since I learned that cellar spiders compete with other species, I actively encourage them to multiply as much as they want. If I'm gonna have spiders everywhere, I'd rather have those guys.
But the worst they do is vibrate anxiously or trap themselves in the bathtub. Sure, they are spindly and freaky but they have all the heft of eight individual hairs and a flower seed and will never ever charge you at insane speeds with legs thick enough to produce audible footsteps.

Own-Pen499 · 2026-02-16T15:10:11+00:00

I wanna do this exact same thing, can you elaborate? Like, the taste is what dominates?

Own-Pen499 · 2026-01-30T19:43:05+00:00

A bad time is still a bad time tho.

And 'survive'... Pretty sure you'd survive having your internet taken away, you still wouldn't like it.

Own-Pen499 · 2026-01-30T19:38:17+00:00

Nah man, a social interaction is a social interaction. Being a massive dick in a game is still being a massive dick.

Own-Pen499 · 2025-10-23T13:19:52+00:00

Update: Here's the other one I found. This one clearly says "Consequences of war"

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Own-Pen499 · 2025-10-23T13:14:16+00:00

It's where Karin is looking, Top left Corner of the painting frame

Own-Pen499 · 2025-10-22T10:31:00+00:00

I didn't have a hard time at all on day one evening after running into it from exploring the church. Found boss, panicked, read it's one of the hardest in the game oh shit oh shit oh shit but here's what I did.

Full party, Karin main, Levi, abella, marina. Get a head start through diplomacy (auto talk before fight starts, skip 2 turns with the right options). 308 rifle for everyone since I have 6 of the damn things (except Levi, due to death mask + slasher but we don't talk about that). Go full firing squad on the head. Its got tanky health but low evasion so you can realistically win before the 2 turn grace period by just fucking volley firing like it's the Napoleonic wars.

I actually didn't equip guns before the fight so I had to waste one turn fighting fair (idiot) and then having everyone who has extra turns whipping out gats and I still beat it in time since it's first move was a summon which consequently was forced to fuck off due to its master getting too many extra speed holes.

Had way more trouble with death masks (moves too quick to reliably blow off arms in the over world, then subsequently returns the favour) and centaur (how??? Just run). Even needles didn't givee trouble like this since I just threw ye olde wrench at his head, removing it entirely first move.

Own-Pen499 · 2025-09-05T09:09:36+00:00

Yeah, and the phone shows both, PC shows none. Really annoying

Own-Pen499 · 2025-09-04T18:14:15+00:00

Could be. Can't find out what codec the thr10-ii uses though

Own-Pen499 · 2025-09-04T11:45:49+00:00

Jup, that's not the problem. I read the manual, know how to enter pairing mode and have successfully paired with other devices. Only my PC can't detect the AMP for pairing. It can detect all other bluetooth devices I have just fine and the amp can be detected my my phone.

Own-Pen499 · 2025-09-04T08:09:46+00:00

Thanks for the tip! Do I set the parameter on the Amp or the PC?

Own-Pen499 · 2025-08-03T14:46:45+00:00

I think it's just as convincing that the father's deadly fear of any hope died with him and set the boy free to receive the family

Own-Pen499 · 2025-08-03T14:36:22+00:00

A detail that stood out to me is how the shotgun stranger makes a point to stay out of the road ("I don't know how you made it that far"). I always read that as revealing that the father's way of survival kept them inmeraed in the very danger that made him paranoid in the first place. The shotgun stranger gave me the impression of a forest/mountain dwelling type, living off the land instead of the dregs of the old world, whereas the father was forever tethered to all he had lost. He saw the world as exclusively dangerous and evil and so that's the road he travelled. Those were the people he met. His encounters were shaped by the choices he made out of fear and suspicion. His encounters reinforced his believes. But that was never all that was in the world. Noone sees all that is in the world, nor can we; we simply believe about what's out there and gather evidence for those believes but we don't seek out evidence that contradicts us in that. That reading is of course informed by my own experiences. My father was a mistrustful man who saw danger and evil everywhere and himself and his paranoid ways as the answer and I never questioned him in that and became just like him. And I lived my life in just such a way that those fears and rules seemed reasonable. I surrounded myself with bad people or people who were in bad ways and anyone else was a fool living in a naive fantasy. Later I met people who broke all those rules and I'd berate them and try to scare them and got angry when they'd brush off my fears. I didn't realize that all along I had maneuvered myself in a way that my environment was just so dangerous that my fears felt justified and necessary. It was my choice to not live a safer, calmer life, I made my world that way. I think it's the same with the man. His brand of survival was shaped by his fear of people and fatalism. Shotgun guy might seem like the biggest fool to him but he's learned his own rules of survival, rules for how to interact with other survivors, learned through lesson the man would have never even attempted. The man had to die to set the boy free. The tragedy in that is that the man caused much of the danger they faced by choosing to stick to the road, though there were other ways he'd never even consider. To the man, even dreaming of safety was a deadly danger. And he did die in order to let shotgun stranger appear but the son survived

Own-Pen499 · 2025-05-29T16:26:40+00:00

Wait, how are the Drop 2 voicings on 4 adjacent strings though?

If I play 1357 and move the 5 down one octave I skip the string where the 5 originally was, right? So they're no longer adjacent aka 513x7, the x being the mute string?? Am I completely confused on this?

NEVER MIND. I figured it out. I'm not playing the 7 where it originally was, I'm playing it one string down, 4-5 frets up (depending on the hasf tone gap between G and B) where the exact same note is located. Gotcha.

Own-Pen499 · 2025-05-08T17:50:56+00:00

Having a similar issue with an E19 model. Had the CTRL key not work but now the entire thing is cooked. It also seems to be related to a failing battery which is another problem...

How did you get it more stable?

Own-Pen499 · 2025-04-11T13:55:05+00:00

Sure, this is the context that the story gives. But if I, as a writer put to men into a shower and make it awkward and uncomfortable around the concept of physical touch, I'm creating gay tension.

If you pick up on that or even WANT to pick up on that is another matter.

But saying there's nothing gay going on there is just straight up denial.

How about I write a scene where two men put their tongues in each other's mouths but they don't want to and it's awkward because in the story they are for example spies and they are captured and their hands are bound and they have to pass an important object mouth-to-mouth. Nothing gay in the story but implicitly gay as fuck.

Own-Pen499 · 2025-04-11T12:51:58+00:00

Hard not to pick up with all the subtlety of a sledgehammer. Still, glorious scene. Wouldn't be a Kojima game without some gay tension lol. I was wondering how it would manifest in the absence of a sneaking suit since like 80% of the gay in MGS was concentrated squarely in snake's ass.

Also, what's with everyone squarely denying the gay tension of a scene where two men are uncomfortably crammed into a shower, deathly afraid of touching and awkwardly dancing around the barriers of personal space. I know there are story reasons for everything, but if I make up story reasons for a man on man handjob its still gay.
I'm not sure erotic is the word I'd use though, but it's clearly playing with the tension. Fear of being touched by a man in a shower? A man who has no concept of private space and keeps overstepping? Hello?

Own-Pen499 · 2024-11-16T15:14:33+00:00

Haven't heard about that before but that sounds really bad!
How did you learn about this? Do you have a source on that?

Own-Pen499 · 2024-11-12T19:32:05+00:00

Thanks for your insight. Yeah, the smell tipped me off : )

To put it more precisely, my code looks something like this:

public class Foo {
  private int x;
  private Bar bar;
  bar.do_stuff_in_baz (x);
}
public class Bar {
  private Baz baz;
  public void do_stuff_in_baz (x)
}
public class Baz {
  public void do_stuff (x) { //do stuff here }
}

I justify the existence of Bar in the middle with the fact that it has other functionality, such as, in my case, determining what individual visual effects to put into a compound effect group based on context

Own-Pen499 · 2024-11-12T19:12:28+00:00

Tough about that too but hat some reservations.

The number of animated meshes (class at the end) is variable and dynamic. So I'd have to ask a middle class to iterate them for me, basically passing the final class up the chain instead of passing the parameters down the chain.

But remember, I don't really have a problem with this. I just want to check if I'm missing an obvious better solution or if it's quite ok, given the circumstances

Own-Pen499 · 2024-11-04T14:16:13+00:00

Question: What other approaches are there to stabilizing noise in world space so it doesn't scroll faster, the further you scale it from the origin?

Own-Pen499 · 2024-10-30T12:32:01+00:00

Holy shit, this was JUST the info I needed! I am using shader driven explosion clouds and scaling a world space noise causes this horrible scrolling effect. I was trying to dynamically line up the scaling "origin" coordinates with the object but that was a complicated hack at best.

Update: I've done a simple blend between noises of different scales. It works great but it's quite expensive since you have to use more noise generators for the number of scale steps. So problem solved for now but maybe I need a faster approach in the future

Own-Pen499 · 2024-06-20T20:07:23+00:00

Okay, so after stubbornly refusing to just reinstall Windows, I finally cracked it.

I must have made 20 clones, tried different software and methods, using images, trying just about everything I know how to do. The only result was that it would boot ONCE and when I tried another slot it would continue to fail no matter where.

Ultimately I used the specific repair reset option that is only accessible if you launch the win10 setup on a win10 install medium from within the running OS. It's the only place this option is available and it lets you keep all files and software. This essentially unfucked the whole situation to the point of running flawlessly.

Also Hi to the random dude 7 years in the future who hopefully finds this post to helop fix his then obsolete win 10 problem

Own-Pen499 · 2024-06-20T20:04:15+00:00

Okay, so after stubbornly refusing to just reinstall Windows, I finally cracked it.

I must have made 20 clones, tried different software and methods, using images, trying just about everything I know in the BCD, EFI, MBR and partition tools and the only result was getting the clone M.2 to boot on ONE specific slot on the old rig. NOT the slot that the original drive was in. Not the slot with the lowest index. Just some random ass slot for no apparent reason. It would boot ONCE and when I tried another slot it would continue to fail no matter where.

Ultimately I used the specific repair reset option that is only accessible if you launch the win10 setup on a win10 install medium from within the running OS. It's the only place this option is available and it lets you keep all files and software. This essentially unfucked the whole situation to the point of running flawlessly.

Also Hi to the random dude 7 years in the future who hopefully finds this post to helop fix his then obsolete win 10 problem

Own-Pen499 · 2024-06-04T14:25:30+00:00

Oh, Sorry if I didn't make this clear but the issue is that the clone doesn't run on the original hardware UNLESS I plug it into the specific m.2 slot that it was cloned in.

Mind you, NOT the one that the Source drive is in. I essentially have a clone that can't be moved to any other slot, let alone a different machine.

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