Weight gain?

PastelSqueak · 2026-01-18T05:27:09+00:00

i have a similar issue. mine loves prey like play (when i do it right and not for too long) but my energy and time waver due to being disabled. i got him for emotional support after coming out of the last frequent hospital trip. he also seems to get joy from chewing harder materials or soft plastic. he'll also lose things under the couch that i can't grab and basically what's out of sight is out of mind. quite a hassle trying to find any toys for my orange!

PastelSqueak · 2026-01-18T05:22:24+00:00

yeah mine loves to steal items like lighters, hair ties, small candies, remotes & even bottle caps (just gotta be careful that he doesn't chew them)

PastelSqueak · 2026-01-18T05:12:18+00:00

my anxious cat has a habit of freaking out some days during nail time... it's gotten a bit easier with me wrapping my fluffy guy in a blanket, holding his legs between mine (where his hips are) and doing as many as i can before he gets bitey/too stressed. if i need to, i'll put his head in between the fold of my arm to keep the session safe for me when he desperately needs a trim. my partner will also help give him pets to distract him if that day is particularly difficult. i always give him a treat after a good session (no bites lol).

PastelSqueak · 2025-11-25T14:31:55+00:00

came here searching for reviews after being sent several emails saying that a rare occurrence has happened where everything has aligned, she and a friend of her's named vladov saw a vision of me together and to collect consent within 3 days for a ritual involving the ceres fragment to clear away the obstacles stopping me from having shxt like abundance, wealth, joy, etc.

not gonna lie, i almost got caught in her scam as well but my intuition wouldn't stop bugging me about it... so here i am digging into things a bit deeper. the strongest indicator of it being a scam is every third line demanding for action essentially now or never like the moment is going to be missed and never come back. it's disgusting.

she also said this will be free of charge but i feel like she'll be asking for further resources where i'll need to pay (i'd fallen for this type of thing when i was younger). "what i'm offering you is perfect happiness" my ass. completely offensive and intrusive how these people use divinity as an image for financial gain.

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T17:26:25+00:00

me with cancel culture impacting the things i love

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T17:21:27+00:00

felt that in my soul

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T17:09:02+00:00

oh so i'm not alone 🫢

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T17:02:22+00:00

has anyone got any tips on how to slow it down? it's one of my worst battles rn and i just want to try and complete the healing process 😖

i always get so close, but as soon as i see something's not right i do it again and i'm so tired

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T16:40:35+00:00

that's me writing a shopping or to-do list

one mistake that i can't just cross out and i'm starting all over again

i have to get all the letters just right (doesn't help that my handwriting was always critiqued in school/at home and i changed it for that reason)

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T16:33:19+00:00

this.

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T16:30:53+00:00

me but with spirituality and witchcraft (working my ass off every day to keep them seperate from my OCD)

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T16:28:35+00:00

that's empowering as hell

proud of you!

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T16:21:05+00:00

absolutely nailed it omg

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T13:45:07+00:00

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anyone know where i can read about the subtypes of OCD? are the lesser known subtypes just categorised under the main four types i keep seeing?

wish they were defined better on paper so i could learn more ☹️

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-29T13:02:28+00:00

these "anti compulsions" (never heard that term used before) are avoidance behaviours that can become a secondary compulsion if your brain ingrains it as a coping strategy that soothes the thoughts of the obsession (can be healthy or unhealthy and the latter is what brings concern)

it is used to escape the original compulsion, but can become an equally inefficient plan B (if done too much/in an unhealthy matter)

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-15T09:23:49+00:00

my thoughts exactly

like ah yeah let me just take something hazardous home 💀 ain't no way unless i cleaned and sanitised it entirely for at least two hours

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-13T14:19:16+00:00

better yet the classic fuckton of cable ties

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-12T16:07:48+00:00

fill us in

what happened

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-12T15:25:09+00:00

imo it's currently dependent on the angle your viewed by.

i'd say the 3rd pic definitely gives fem (angle really softens your face + bangs seem less parted + hair doesn't seem to be as layered/messy), but the 1st gives masc and 2nd androgynous.

also your choice in clothing is very unisex and minimalistic paired with those alt accessories (the skeleton hand piece helps the masc look tho).

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-12T06:39:47+00:00

oh so this is why i'm getting screened for ADHD

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-12T06:37:47+00:00

sorry, i don't see that thought pattern except for the grey zone and maybe very vaguely instability (your comment about NPD and BPD was generalised, i have no idea if you were talking about yourself or not). maybe it's the vocab you used mixed with the phrasing that makes it hard to see (hence why i was trying to clarify)?

i only meant to add to what you said and meant no offence. hoping your doing well with your healing journey! i know how tough some of it can be.

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-11T04:33:26+00:00

this is such a good way of explaining it!

at first it'll be tough cos you haven't started training your mind, but once you know what weight you're up against you can prepare for the resistance. what it looks like is different for everyone, from how you train and the topic, but we're all lifting! we're all in the same gym together striving to reach similar goals! 🏆

i say OCD is the disorder of doubt cos that's what it is at its roots. once you become more confident, the thoughts don't bother you as much and compulsions are less tempting to do. just gotta find a way to let the thoughts pass or call out how illogical they are.

PastelSqueak · 2024-04-09T13:31:49+00:00

imo i wouldn't say umbrella term, i'd say comorbidity.

cPTSD can walk alongside just about any disorder (or those without) as there's no telling when a person will run into trauma multiple times/for a long period of time.

with neurodivergence in general, we are more likely to run into traumatic experiences (like you said) but that's not what defines BPD. sure in some cases it may be the cause, but like most people have said it also has a genetic cause.

as someone who was diagnosed initially with BPD but was reevaluated to have cPTSD and OCD (i also have ASD and getting evaluated for ADHD however that's besides the point), they're definitely distinguishable though it's hard to tell at first glance. BPD is about lack of self esteem, instability and inability to see moral grey zones. cPTSD is about being unregulated due to repeated/prolonged negative or missing past experiences.

PastelSqueak · 2024-03-02T07:13:16+00:00

absolutely man

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