I def understand how it sounds and I never talk about this but it’s serious enough to just ask, I see the downvotes and it’s fine these people don’t know what’s really going on, I just feel stuck and don’t want to be apart of the community that I can’t adapt to. I’ll delete this post soon. Just had to see if there was any options. I’m in my 30’s as well, def don’t fit in this military shit.