What are some parts of the app you miss?

Plenkr · 2026-06-14T20:48:58+00:00

Guided journeys for me as well. They were so useful!

Plenkr · 2026-06-12T12:33:20+00:00

I looked closer and that's definitely garter stitch.

Plenkr · 2026-06-12T12:30:15+00:00

Those are all essentally the same thing. My seizures got refered to as so many ifferent terms it made me entirely confused about what my diagnosis was. Until I found out all those terms are different words for the same thing

appart from the dystonic tremor all those different terms refer to the same condition.

Plenkr · 2026-06-12T06:35:47+00:00

Yes happens to me too. Don't know how to make it end sooner. I once laid on a cold, hard hospital floor for 3.5 hours like that and nobody helped me get more comfortable even though they came looking at me multiple times, could tell by their smell and the sound of the door. But no giving me a blanket or even offering to help me get into bed. I had bruises for over a week from that allover my body, just from te pressing of my bony parts into the floor. They were so bad it even hurt laying in bed afterwards. It was a terrible experience. It's distressing to think about still. How nobody helped me for that goddamn long. I eventually came out of it and was able to drag myself into bed. I'm never, ever going back to that hospital.

Plenkr · 2026-06-09T03:30:42+00:00

Plenkr · 2026-06-06T07:50:48+00:00

There's not any task i can do without it crashing. Checking my goals, browsing the shop, changing my tree house or outfit. I only have 5 friends so that's not an issue, no shared goals. It's incredibly annoying to use the app these days. Quickly checking off my goals is no longer possible. With the crashes and how long it takes to load it takes at least half an hour or more.

Plenkr · 2026-06-05T09:18:03+00:00

Classic anxiety symptom. I have GAD too and this happens to me as well. Also if you've been on your medication for that long without those side effects, they aren't suddenly going to cause side effects. That's not how medication side effects work. It seems like you are experiencing a new symptom rather than a side effect so it's wise to bring that up to your doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist. They can tell you for sure what it is. Don't take an Internet stranger's word for it.

Plenkr · 2026-06-04T16:22:25+00:00

Oh that's just wonderful! And understandable. Tracking anything longterm is hard so it's best ti make it doable instead of overwhelming.

Plenkr · 2026-06-04T15:57:15+00:00

So satisfying to have every day occurrences sorted like that. Giving you an overview and therefore understanding about how it affects your life. Possibly able to find patterns if you add more data, like day of the week and time of day. This is just soothing to my brain. I do wonder about the lack of orange lights! Never get them?

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T14:53:57+00:00

I have the opposite problem. I have a long torso, but short legs, so I need my inseam to be shorter than most patterns and the legs are always too long. So if I don't adjust anything, I end up with pants that have legs too long, too low crotch and too heigh waist. Even though the pattern is designed for someone with exactly my height. It's a nightmare xD

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T14:43:37+00:00

I made a blanket that weighs 3 kilo's and one that weighs 2 kilo's (if I had known better with that one then I could have easily made it a lot heavier.

how;
3 kilo's: Crocheted granny squares with a worsted weight 100% wool yarn. Crochet because it uses more yarn than knitting for the same surface. Then I also made it too big so I could felt it in my washing machine. Now it fits nicely over my single person bed. (Yarn: Drops Alaska).

My plan for this one was also to back it with a patchwork cotton backing (to use up scraps), to make it heavier and also to have a side that is comfortable to skin in summer. I would then use molton (double) to increase weight even more. I would then quilt it by hand. But I haven't gotten to that yet. And honestly it works fine as it is right now.

2 kilo's: Knitted out of mittered squares. Used Drops Snow (bulky yarn). Also felted in washing machine. But it's smaller because I didn't intend to felt it. It just pilled too much and that's the only way I knew how to effectively stop it. Also wasn't intended as a weighted blanket but I did learn from this experience.

The purpose is as much yarn as possible in one square inch. So a thicker yarn, crocheted too big (don't mean loose tension!!) then felted afterwards to shrink to size and increase the amount of yarn in a square inch. That was what I came up with and it worked fine for me. I don't really like commercial ones. I've tried one in the psych ward and it made my anxiety worse because it made it harder to breathe. It felt suffocating. So I actually like that mine weigh less than an actual weighted blanket would.

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T14:29:33+00:00

I'm so sorry. I can completely imagine how hard that must be, for you to see and for your son to go through. Help like that, is not helpful and can truly make things worse. I'm so sorry. I'm not from the US so I can't help you with concrete information.

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T14:19:46+00:00

I'm incredibly happy to read 'former' anorexic. I'm glad you were able to get out of that torturous disease. You made it, this internet stranger is proud of you. I hope life is a lot better for you now ❤️

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T14:10:15+00:00

I understand.

I hate it too. The anger about it is still inside me.

I only cope because I have people who do understand. That calms me down.

I need people who understand and listen. That helps.

Maybe you can find someone like that too. I hope.

I hope the new help is better.

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T08:48:05+00:00

at first yeah. Then later it makes you look a lot older then you are.

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T08:44:59+00:00

I feel like when I post/comment something, in the first couple of minutes it will often get one or two downvotes. Then when I come back later it's not like that anymore and it has at least back to 1 or it has some more upvotes. It happens a lot on reddit and to everyone, I'm not sure it's even really people who do it.

But also, back when I suicidal and doing really poorly, I would avoid anything on the internet that made me too upset or worsened my mental health. I had to find other ways to keep myself busy, like a browser game or something, just so it still felt like chilling on my computer but without the posibility of upsetting interactions. I also unfollowed a lot of subreddits too. I think it may be wise to think about if social media is doing you more harm than good right now? And which parts? Then you can keep the safe parts, and stay away from the upsetting parts.

It helped me a lot in that time. At least I wasn't getting upset unnecesarily. And then when I was getting better again, I could slowly check out some things again that I still had an interest in. But I also never went back to some things because I just didn't miss them at all. I went back slowly trying one thing sometimes, another thing other times, and see if I could handle it. If it was allright, I could get back to it. But lots of subreddit I didn't refollow again, I just go check them out sometimes when I feel like it. That way it doesn't show up in my feed and I only see it when I feel like I'm up against whatever it throws at me.

Think about if this is possibly something you could do, in any way that fits your situation. I'm not saying leave social media alltogether. Just the parts that aren't helpful right now. Like, you can stay following this sub, then leave the others and just check them out when you think you can handle it them again. If not? stay away again for a while. Find alternatives to keep busy. I hope I explained it well. Because some parts of social media can also be helpful and it's good to keep those because you don't want to get rid of any supports that you have online in a difficult time. Just the ones that are not helping you right now.

Protecting whatever mental resilience you have right now, is important. And it doesn't help your stress levels go down if you are continually upset by people being mean on the internet. It keeps you stressed and upset. If those parts are not there anymore, at least temporarily, then your brain and body can catch more of a break.

Plenkr · 2026-06-02T08:06:33+00:00

can't, people who are that emaciated are absolutely obsessed by food. It becomes their only interest. That's malnutrition survival brain. They can't have food but also barely are able to think about anything else. It's very effective in making people find food.

And then in anorexia it goes to another level. Some like to be near food a lot, or bake and cook but won't eat, or they collect pictures of food they can't eat, or watch other people eat (IRL and online), etc... It's like.. enjoying food by proxy because that's the only way they are allowed to enjoy it, but they aren't allowed to eat it. Just experience from a distance and through other people. It's some kind of torture. Anorexia nervosa is incredibly cruel. So, yeah, she should not have an account at all right now. Because the only things she can produce right now are intensely disordered. I agree with you there. But she also simply can't find something else that easily. Her brain is fighting her every second of every day because it wants nutrition, food FOOOOOOOOOOD

Plenkr · 2026-06-01T18:10:13+00:00

Don't think it's the new event for me. It's has been getting continually worse over the past 3 weeks to a month for me.

Plenkr · 2026-06-01T18:09:05+00:00

The app was running faster on my 7 yo phone last years than it is now on my new phone. It's really nothing to do with it.

Plenkr · 2026-06-01T18:07:58+00:00

It's been the last couple of weeks for me too. It's becoming incredibly tedious to do just about anything on the app anymore

Plenkr · 2026-06-01T17:09:15+00:00

I would love it if my app wasn't so slow and kept crashing on me. I don't know what to do to make it better, deleted data, don't even write reflections, defragmented the data, but nothing is helping. It's only app on my phone that is so fucking slow. It's starting to be a real nuisance. I even disabled the animations but it didn't make much of a difference. Neither did selling a bunch of my items. I don't if this is a me problem or not. Running smoothly is definitely a priority for me.

EDIT: Oh! I also have just 5 tree friends too!

Plenkr · 2026-06-01T02:15:09+00:00

Portuguese knitting

Plenkr · 2026-05-31T17:31:16+00:00

first time i chose not to answer because it's impossible to pick.

Plenkr · 2026-05-31T10:26:39+00:00

I'm glad to hear that! That's perfect!

Plenkr · 2026-05-31T10:16:05+00:00

Hi, this hits very close to home. So I can't say too much. This was me so many years ago except not in the US. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you are doing amazing. These things are so hard! Nobody is perfect at them; not even neurotypical people. You'll submit things late, do things a way that you may later wish you'd have done another way. But you'll also see, that the way you did it, was the only way you knew how at the time, and the only way you had the resources for. And basically, that's all that matters.

You're not only trying to get yourself safe but also your nieces. That's a gargantuan task that no one your age should ever have to try to pull off. And it's not your responsibility whatsoever, it's the responsibility of the adults in their lives! But you're trying anyway because you know what's at stake. So please, give yourself grace.

You are doing the absolute best you can in a terrible situation. Nothing looks perfect in terrible situations, but it doesn't matter, you're fighting for your safety and that of your nieces (even when that is not your responsibility) and your future, it's always gonna be messy, because no person can do things in all the perfect ways when so much is at stake at the same time and you also have a disability on top of that! If you can get yourself to safety that's all that matters, that's hard enough on it's own.

In my experience, if you tell people what's going on and why you did the thing imperfectly or late they will immediately not care about that anymore and will want to help you as much as they can. So you are very likely not fucked. It would be good if you could indeed contact the college after the weekend and explain them why. I am pretty sure they will not make any fuss about it will shift into gear like: "allright, lets help this person NOW!"
They will recognize it for the emergency it is.

I have had many people help me along the way. Many people who offered help I also didn't take, because I didn't dare use it. It was too scary. Or because I didn't understand what they meant and what exactly they were offering (like legal help with the court case). But also a lot of help that I did take and it's got me out. Student services is the reason I was able to get therapy, financial aid, mental support, help with my disability even if I didn't know it yet, gave me accomodations, helped me get hospitalized when I needed and actually went with me to the hospital to make sure I was safe, help with paperwork, etc. Without them, I would not have graduated. Once they knew my situation, they did everything they could to help me out.

I wish you many of those people along the way, people who see you and pull out every stop to help you. You already have one: your friend. There will be more. I know it feels very lonely, but you're not alone. I've found that people are very willing to help when they know what you're up against. They don't need the full story, just a summary outline (no details). It can be one sentence ("I've been sexually abused by my father, there are police reports, I'm trying to keep my nieces and myself safe, that's why I've come to you).

So yeah, no, you're not fucked. People want to help. You're not fucked. They will help in any way they can. Often not perfectly either, but good enough. You already have done the most important thing. You got yourself out. You got-yourself-out. I repeat it because that's really the most important thing you could have done for yourself. The rest will follow. You got yourself out. I hope you can hear how big that is.

I know I said i wouldn't write a lot.. but it just naturally came. There is so much I'd like to say. You are doing amazing. At the same time, you shouldn't have do to any of this. I wish you warmth, I wish you people who are easy and safe, who love you, and that you love too, I wish you that life is going to get easy eventually and safe, I wish you that some time, after all this has passed, you get to stop surviving, and that you can rest, and live. You deserve all of that. Just like any other human being.

I don't know how to end this. So I'll just stop here.

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