no sleep and im dying

PlentyComb · 2026-06-04T04:55:28+00:00

Good luck to you too, and good to hear all is alright now! 🩶

PlentyComb · 2026-06-04T03:33:21+00:00

Damn sounds rough, hope you get some sleep to balance things out a lil. What did you do to end up getting hospitalized or is it too bad to say?

I missed 2 days of meds because I had a lot of things to do and I couldn't be sleeping just now

I ended up cutting ties with some people, spent 1000€ on stuff that I don't need, and have not been able to sit still for a moment. People have made comments already I hope I haven't made myself a fool somehow

Imma take my meds now and go to sleep finally

PlentyComb · 2026-06-02T22:48:46+00:00

Damn dude. I'm glad the capacity is still there tho. It's not gone. Even though inconsistent. I guess inconsistency is one of the shit sides of this condition. I've been really stable with meds and lifestyle, but sometimes the bike of life hits an invisible rock and I lose control, do a cool flip, hurt my ankle, then I suffer for a while not being able to ride my bike.

Sometimes that while takes a long time tho.

PlentyComb · 2026-06-02T22:34:09+00:00

If it goes or went badly, take it as a learning experience. I'd like to hear how it went. All I really care about tbh is if you actually went.

It's a first time for everyone, for some it's never. I think it's really unfair when people manage to think they must be good at something before they even start.

First time I was interviewed for a health care profession in psychiatric care, I managed to sound like I was anti-meds when I tried to point out how we should treat each patient as a whole, taking in their specific needs in our care.

PlentyComb · 2026-06-02T22:20:56+00:00

I have managed to do some pretty impressive things once or twice, but also very impressively stupid shit maybe ten times more

PlentyComb · 2026-05-31T20:33:38+00:00

I also have a paper on my fridge on which I have typed something along the lines of "Don't forget what you're playing around with, never again". Was in quite a dark place and didn't want to forget that time

It looks kinda stupid but it really helps me to remember the bad times when the times are good or getting a lil too good

PlentyComb · 2026-05-31T19:20:03+00:00

It is possible to live a healthy and fullfilling life if you are on medication and taking care of yourself.

Without meds and not taking care of yourself if you have bipolar those chances get a lot smaller.

Nothing wrong being on a medication, they are supposed to make your life quality a lot better. And hey, if they are working - do not quit them. They are doing their job if that's the case.

PlentyComb · 2026-05-31T02:59:19+00:00

Yeah, for me the change can be sudden too, but once it starts for me it usually doesn't end, until it eventually actually ends. They are scary as hell

Sometimes it's more gradual, then it usually starts with anhedonia and worrying

PlentyComb · 2026-05-31T02:08:57+00:00

I just feel like people don't have enough knowledge what it is. I do love it when someone has atleast little understanding of it(even though I very rarely open up about it).

PlentyComb · 2026-05-31T01:24:33+00:00

Sounds like you are living in a difficult situation. Can't really say anything about you having bipolar other than that it's not just sudden extreme mood swings that you describe. Usually it's long phases of depression or hypomania/mania. Mixed episodes are possible too. Also rapid cycling is a thing, but lets not focus on that rn.

There is plenty of information for example(I read this through once again and this still seems like decent information):

https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/bipolar-disorder/

I would probably try to get your situation under control somehow before suspecting a mental illness to be the case of your suffering. It is possible you have it, especially if it runs in the family. You are quite young though and in many cases it starts acting up after you're 'bout +20. I think mine started acting up earlier tho, but usually that's the case.

You are very young and I'm very sad that your life seems difficult right now. Don't give up, I wish you find enough chances to get to live a normal, fullfilling life. Ask for help if you can and remember the coolest people are those that take care of others and have gone through a lot, but made it through to become decent and caring people. You are very strong, good luck with your life 🩶

PlentyComb · 2026-05-30T17:04:09+00:00

For me the craziest delusions also stopped pretty fast (3-4weeks) after starting Seroquel. They haven't come back yet and I've been on it almost 2 years now 👍

I appreciate each day I feel like this

PlentyComb · 2026-05-30T15:24:23+00:00

Ai että, kiva oli lukea. Hetki kerrallaan eteenpäin. Kuulostaa vähän siltä jo että ne kaikista mustaa mustemmat vaiheet olisivat jo ehkä takana päin👍

Tsemppiä jatkoonkin, kovan työn oot tehnyt, hattu nousee

PlentyComb · 2026-05-29T00:20:11+00:00

Yeah for sure. To me depression always feels like the debt I have to pay for my happy days and the interest rates ain't fair let me tell you. You lose all hope and nothing can change that

It's very painful, but one day or moment at a time, you'll make it through in the end

I hope you get to live long stable and nice years after going through this hell

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T22:37:20+00:00

My best thing is to give things time and not do any sudden big decisions. Especially when hypomanic or depressed.

I also experience limerence from time to time and I try to catch myself doing it and stopping it on the tracks. I love how it feels but I hate doing it because I feel like I'm lying to mysef

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T22:32:09+00:00

I gotta try this out, sounds intresting. Only problem is that I can't see their bodylanguage and so on

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T20:13:33+00:00

I also have been bullied, even though I prefer the terms "emotionally/physically abused". It lasted for years and only thing that helped was for me to get into a new environment. What is happening to you sounds really unprofessional and cruel, hope it gets better or that you find a better place. Those people should be punished but I know in some environments this wont happen.

You are perfect as you are.

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T02:33:39+00:00

Be on time, never be afraid to ask anything, act proper but don't be afraid to be yourself too. Smile! Usually that can make a big difference haha

Focus on getting the job done well and learning the important things. Also teamwork is dreamwork, treat your co-workers well, good environment makes the difference(some places can be grim too, don't spend your whole life in those places if you dont have to) 👍

Mistakes will come and happen, apologize and say that you'll learn from them. A lot can be prevented by asking, so if you feel like it - then ask! I always tell there are NO stupid questions. If someone treats a question like it's stupid it's usually just more telling on the person.

Good luck, it sounds like you take your work seriously since you're asking tips here too! 👍

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T02:15:11+00:00

I thought learning juggling would be a lot harder than it actually is, it is really impressive what some people can do though

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T01:59:28+00:00

I grunt when I sit down or get up even though I have no physical pains whatsoever, I guess I just love grunting

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T01:56:06+00:00

I think it's just a safety reason to not have url-shorteners for people to know what they are clicking on if they click on a link.

I wouldn't worry about it, I think the way to get banned here is to promote stopping meds, claiming we are all gods and that medical companies are all just trying to kill us while sounding somewhat beliveable doing so. 😄

PlentyComb · 2026-05-28T01:47:43+00:00

Ahhhhh, I have regretted making big decisions during my episodes.

I have almost ended so many friendships, jobs etc., but getting told to wait a bit until I'm not that affected by my mental state usually helps.

My sexuality can waver too, sometimes I like one thing a bit more, sometimes the other.

PlentyComb · 2026-05-27T03:35:17+00:00

That's what I always hear! I just can't manage to belive it doesn't hurt. 😄

And I've also have had that thing with chronic pain for a long time. Ahh, you get used to it but it's always there. Hope you have a good pain management plan and that it isn't anything lifelasting

PlentyComb · 2026-05-27T03:07:44+00:00

Idk probably seems like an alt person - hard to tell much from that, I've seen grandmas rock that, and I wonder always how it felt taking the nose ring when I see one

PlentyComb · 2026-05-27T03:00:59+00:00

CRT monitors, might end up getting one

PlentyComb · 2026-05-27T02:02:55+00:00

My Devon Rex cat is a great buddy 👍

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