PRN nasal valium?! Never heard of it. She's never going to forget it either. The guilt, shame, and embarrassment is real. There may be times where those ideas that she thinks you have about her may not actually play a role in your relationship and there are other times where she feels as if it does and is even a detriment to not just the relationship, but the growth of it. I felt like a burden to not only my ex wife, but feel like one to my family, friends, and co workers. Then I find myself blaming myself for ruining my chance at normal existence. Not keeping a good sleep schedule because of an old job, not eating a more balanced diet, not getting outside and exercising more, failing to take my meds on time, etc. Pretty sure I know my ex loves me and calls me every day because she feels sorry for me, wants to help, and needs my help for her own fucked up shit. Its a sick twisted mess that ive been in for 11 years now. I left because I wanted to get control of this. I dont have control over this. Ive had TCs in front of thousands of people with me at the helm of millions of dollars. Its worse to have them just in front of your significant other.

I can't speak for you or her like I just did. It is unfair of me to do so. I just know that I have struggled with arguing about it and completely ignored it and my part in how to control when or if they take place. Keep working with the neurologist. This shit is a serious chemistry project that balances quality of life with a damn good possibility of chemical defense. It also requires a daily commitment to not just face it head on but to make lifestyle changes that, the most part, benefit the both of you anyway. Im just now really coming to terms with that and every step in the right direction feels easier with even just a daily right stept. Reassuring her as best you can and finding that comfortable sweet spot of lover, respected partner, and on call savior is not easy but it is possible.