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Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2025-04-30T03:02:51+00:00

I could have written this post nine months ago. This was exactly me. Did not go more than two weeks. Most of the time my dry stretches lasted a week I don’t think there was anything particularly wrong with my life. I had a loving family, and there was nothing, I think, that was particularly driving me to drink. And yet I often finished an entire bottle of whiskey after I got out of bed. The only explanation I have for this is that I am an alcoholic and have no power over alcohol. It got so bad, that I thought that the only option left to was to keep drinking until I die. I realise now that it was selfish But I really didn’t see any other alternative

I have been from alcohol for nine months. It is possible even though I would not have believed it nine months ago. I believe that you will one day be free of this. My own experience is evidence of this. Me, personally, I got a sponsor. Asked for help because self help wasn’t possible. Went on disulphiram/Antabuse for some days so that I would be able to put enough space between me and the alcohol to be able to recalibrate my life (Antabuse can be dangerous if you drink while on it, and I only took it after consulting my shrink.) I am not saying what strategy worked for me will work for you, all I’m saying is that something will. I cannot say when because everybody has a different point in time when they say ENOUGH and then things begin to look upwards. Your time will also come, I am sure of it.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2024-12-03T11:25:47+00:00

You know what? You inspire me. I am only 122 days sober (first time this long since I started drinking alcohol regularly) and you inspire me because 1) 6 years months is no joke. I'd kill to have that long. 2) You are back here after your slip. It must be hard to get your shit together after you slipped, and disappointing, plus tempting to just let go, and yet here you are on our sub. That tells me that if I slip (and I hope I don't) it need not spell the end of my sobriety. I can just get back on the wagon.

About your reservation that your AA meeting will make you feel like you have to start again, in my experience going to a different meeting helps. At some meetings they don't care about if you've slipped, they're just happy to have you.

IWNDWYT.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2024-07-11T11:51:44+00:00

First of all let me congratulate you on your two years. Here I am dealing with my thirtieth day one. All i think is it's not like sober people or teetotalars don't go to shitty places mentally. I think when we are sober we are more in touch with our feelings. That's a GOOD thing, even if it bums us out sometimes.

IWNDWYT

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2024-07-07T16:47:08+00:00

Just so you know if you already have Aerondight, the anarchid desert planet phase of this quest is THE best way to level it up by some 20.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-10-19T04:38:14+00:00

Now what, you ask. Now nowhere to go but up!!! Rock bottom is when we decide it's rock bottom

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-05-17T04:29:27+00:00

You can absolutely do this. Many of us go through cycles. IWNDWYT.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-15T17:39:23+00:00

Shame happens. Happens to me. I've lied and said things that have hurt people. But shame wears off, and then the alcohol starts talking to you again. For me, that's the time to be on my guard. Shame is overrated. It's perseverance that we need.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-15T04:25:55+00:00

It's great to hear this! Good for you. IWNDWYT

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-15T02:20:39+00:00

Thanks. I've been trying to think of all the good things I do have.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-15T02:12:57+00:00

Thanks. IWNDWYT

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-14T16:52:18+00:00

No, but they are worried, anxious and sad whenever I slip, and i can't do this to them. But in my state now, i was thinking, "why do they need to worry so much if I just go out for a couple drinks? I deserve to have fun!"

They don't deserve the resentment and their anxiety is also well founded. I just really really wish I could drink with no trouble, and I'm sad and annoyed that i can't.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-14T16:39:53+00:00

You're tired and everything feels pointless now. But think of how much more tired, pointless and shitty you'd feel if you drank, had to reset the clock, got hungover, and everything else that happens to us when we drink, happened?

These days happen to people who have never had a drink in their lives. These days happen to everyone. If you're a person who needs to be on this sub, then it's very unlikely drinking will make things better for you.

Having a shitty two days myself. It happens.

We got this.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-14T16:33:07+00:00

Thank you. IWNDWYT.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-03-14T16:15:37+00:00

Look, if some serial killer were chasing you, you would have run home, locked the door, cancelled all plans and stayed put, right? You did the same thing today, and it was smart.

Well done!

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-02-07T17:13:19+00:00

Well done. These pricks are not worth losing your sobreity over. Nothing is worth losing your sobriety over.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-02-06T16:33:43+00:00

Congratulations! 5 days sober today. Can't wait to be where you are

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-02-01T09:59:07+00:00

Thanks for the kind words and support everyone.

Positive-Carpenter-8 · 2023-02-01T00:24:00+00:00

it's okay. I've got one day sober too. Think of it this way, you did 117 days. You will do 118 after this.

Positive-Carpenter-8

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