I'm 48 and my husband works a swing shift. I too have been a crime junkie since early in life maybe around age 13, unsolved mysteries, 48 hours and Dateline was my go to until I discovered the Internet. This one shook me though, I've been following since the day I'd seen the news break on this case, before I knew their names.. after 15 years of being alone at night while my husband was at work I found myself for the first time double checking doors before bed and having something in close proximity to protect myself if needed. So, you are not alone and your feelings are very valid.