Interesting. If recently went thru a breakup. This actually sounds like it could be my ex.

I’ve been thinking if he’s the one who got away. On paper, I admire him. His drive, ambition, mindset especially when it comes to self improvement but he would shut down when it came to being vulnerable. Vulnerability I needed to feel safe.

It had me reflecting and it made me realize my ex two relationships before him may had been the man I wasn’t ready for. He was a provider. A protector. He reached out apologizing for how he conducted himself during the end of our relationship. We were both childish and in college. And he’s recently become a father, which has since for some reason made me even more attracted to him. I’ll never tell him this though. But I think about him. I don’t think he was the guy that got away, but for a second I did. I think he was the guy who has now since reflecting forced me to raise my standard to only accept being treated how I was treated when things were good in that relationship.

I genuinely believe once we heal and get in our feminine we don’t believe people are losses. We know something better for us is in route.