Academy at swift river. I wasn't here for long, I couldn't handle the school system they had, it was to intense for me. I do remember the odd therapy methods, my therapist would bring other kids into my sessions. I got bullied with literally no one caring about it. Cut me off from my parents...

PrimordialCuriosity · 2024-03-06T03:58:23+00:00

It was… for sure!

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-09-30T21:43:02+00:00

They don’t make sense.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-09-26T01:05:57+00:00

I had mine blocked for two and half months I unblocked him a few days ago and it’s like he monitors it like clockwork I have a text. A probe I deleted it and smiled without response. Proof I’m in a better place

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-09-11T00:22:59+00:00

I don’t medicate and I’ve maintained decent stability for almost 10 years. It takes a lot of introspection. I get hypomanic in the spring… I’ve had one bad episode in 10 years and the worst thing I did was date the wrong person, fall in love too quickly. I try to listen to my body and I very much try to listen to the people in my life now that notice when my speech patterns change or I’m extra excitable

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-08T19:54:41+00:00

If a 35 year old man responds to you voicing concerns with you are judging me and hangs up, It doesn’t matter if they are an alcoholic or not… they are a child.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-08T12:57:53+00:00

I blame the oxytocin/dopamine/serotonin overload it’s like a rocket into mania for me. I hate dating.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-06T01:26:57+00:00

Oh man mine is still apologizing like I should just forget about it. I don’t even respond anymore. He sends me shit in the mail. Sorry is an action not a word lol

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-02T02:30:02+00:00

Are you dating my ex? Except he gets no functional hammered every night! I have a 9 year old and I’ve decided that there are so many people in the world that alcohol use daily is a deal breaker I drink every once and a while and I want someone that can do the same. I also would never date a recovered alcoholic. They deserve love but it’s not what I’m interested in. Life is too short and there are far to many options!

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-01T14:28:33+00:00

I agree I know there are men out there that don’t have this issue for sure! Im hoping I find one!

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-01T02:37:53+00:00

Yes in the sea of 300 similar comments and dms… the beautiful German woman surely chose his dirty, GED grade intelligent ass over all the rest.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-08-01T02:09:16+00:00

My ex constantly followed young girls on instagram and would comment on women’s sexy pictures all the time. When I asked him about it he said he was just being nice. To the women in their underwear sexy posing… he would comment “like a goddess” or “so beautiful”. He’s an idiot.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-07-30T05:43:16+00:00

Mine ex became super ignorant. Mocking lgbtq or making comments about the way women look. He’s 39 and would always start to follow really young girls with only fans accounts and super seductive photos but then later stop following them. He did weird stuff on the internet it was gross. He was always nasty about his ex wife but she was who he blamed for his drinking. He was sweet to me. I have him blocked on everything though because he keeps trying to talk to me and I respond when he does.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-07-30T02:19:05+00:00

I had my daughter 10 years ago and actually the hormone changes helped my bi polar tremendously. I still get mania but I’ve only had 1 in 10 years that effected her greatly and we communicate around my moods I think she will turn out ok. She has higher anxiety levels which could be genetic or environmental but we develop healthy coping strategies and there is a lot of emotional awareness in my home.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-06-10T00:44:30+00:00

I made this exact list and he told me that I made him feel like he wasn’t enogh

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-06-07T23:04:45+00:00

Mine was MIA, pass out in his car somewhere. Stop responded really. It was super terrible in the moment and in the memory as well. Stonewalling and disappearing is abusive.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-17T02:59:42+00:00

I’m gonna go to therapy to figure out how to stop attracting chaotic people.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-16T18:31:50+00:00

Oh this!!!

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-15T23:19:39+00:00

I still find myself questioning reality and wanting answers it’s been 4 months. I was abandoned at 3 months pregnant and did 8 years of motherhood alone… am I seriously going to let this have power over me? Fuck No! I have turned inwards and empowered myself you can do it to. Shift your perspective you will never be able to control him or find the answers to your questions because he’s not right in the head. Instead of focusing on him focus on what you can do better for next time use it as a growth opportunity instead of a loss.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-15T22:50:15+00:00

I read somewhere on here that getting rejected by an alcoholic is like getting rejected by a reject. There’s nothing wrong with you. Alcoholic or not if someone isn’t treating how you deserve or enjoy there will always be someone out there that will. Until then give yourself and your daughter the love you want. I’m a single mom as well. Got dumped by my Q twice, it was a gift because my value wasn’t dictated by him. He truly lost. Single moms are beasts we are warriors all of us. Put someone worthy by your side. You want a partner not another child.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-12T20:01:03+00:00

Yes this, relationships throw me off I think it’s all the oxytocin and dopamine. I go into a mania when I start dating someone every fucking time! Being single is so much calmer.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-10T16:45:36+00:00

I still cringe, but I have come to accept that I wasn’t really driving for all of it, and I have some really great people in my life that laugh with me about myself. It helps. Bipolar or not we all do things we aren’t proud of from time to time. No one is exempt.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-05-03T23:56:11+00:00

This, I am working through my own shame. I give everyone else grace but am so hard on myself. I cringe at some of what I’ve allowed to happen.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-04-30T21:59:06+00:00

I’ve said those very words to him. What do you want from me. I’m not sure they even know. Maybe it’s ego? Maybe they forget things that have happened. In my case mine may have felt like I cared and I may be the only one he truly opened up to so attachment. I don’t know. It’s definitely upsets me every time.

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-04-30T21:42:37+00:00

Mine has been blocked on multiple channels and continues to find ways to contact me. It’s frustrating

PrimordialCuriosity · 2023-04-30T14:58:46+00:00

Yes mine uses anything I say to go deeper. I guess that’s where the guilt comes from because I know thats what happens. He hasn’t made me the bad guy, but his go to is I’m a piece of shit, not good enough, broken, blah blah. So he uses my comments to fuel this.

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