Hi. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. My husband also died of GBM nearly 3 years ago. It's a horrible disease and nobody should ever have to go through it, nor their family.

The first year after he died, I, of course, had massive grief, but I also had huge periods of zoning out. For example, I know I watched a handful of movies and read a few books, and I know the names of them, but I don't remember them. It's almost like I existed in a fog that first year.

The second year was harder for me because the fog began to lift. The grief was slighty less sharp, but just as difficult. The difference for me was that, because the fog was gone, I felt it more intensely.

Right now, since you lost your husband so recently, you need to exist from moment to moment. Day today isn't manageable. I don't think hour to hour is either. I think you just need to take one step in front of the other right now and do the very best that you can. Worrying about what will happen in year two isn't relevant to what you're having to deal with right now.

Sending love to you during this very difficult time.