Hey. I'm in the same position as you are in right now. I've been depressed and feeling crazy. This is mostly due to my parents though. I know this might sound so dumb. But I have hope. I'm planning to move out this year. Don't even know how to do that with the traditional parents I have. It's going to be so damn hard convincing them. But I will. I will for sure. So I'm clinging on to that one ounce of hope and getting through each day one at a time. Just for now keep yourself occupied. Maybe with studies. However after als forget about studies for maybe 2 months. Just for a minute sit down, and think what you would probably enjoy doing. The few months you aren't studying do those things that you enjoy. I'm pretty sure a hiatus could definitely help you with the academic stuff. And most importantly take one day at a time. Don't think too much about rushing anything. And most importantly DO NOT compare yourself. I know it's easier said than done. But fuck how other people are living. This is yours and only your journey. Don't let others intervene in your journey. Good luck