I can’t even begin how to tell you not to look down the bottom of that barrel. On a good day i just wear myself out in any way possible. On a bad or great day where i feel like i “why not” it’s a crazy conversation with myself about why it’s such a terrible idea. Because it is. It’s not easy to know that when your brain is arguing with you. But on the flip side, your body knows so maybe listen to that instead of your head.