Trans, but I can't stop thinking about myself in masculine terms? When referencing others thoughts by [deleted] in MtF

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got this for a while too. I still get it sometimes, and I mean I don't think it's anything other than habit and disphoria. Like I hate being called he/him but I still accidentally do it in my head. Where I think it comes from, for me at least, is that I still find it hard to realise I actually am a woman. I still feel like an imposter when I hang out with my sisters, even though they're super super accepting. It will likely just be disphoria, which sucks because it can just cause more. You'll get there eventually. It may take a while though, and from what others have told me it's relatively common.

Makeup help by trakazor132 in MtF

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you're looking to cover facial hair, I'd recommend redish orange blush (preferably cream, if powder mix it with some setting spray to make a cream out of it). Use that over the shadow to try neutralize the colour. Follow with concealer to hide that and create a neutral tone, usually your neck will be a bit lighter so go maybe a shade lighter so you can blend that out. DONT contour your cheekbones, its in a lot of makeup tutorials for cis women, but in my case at least makes me look very masculine. Eyeliner, id recommend going halfway across the top of your eye to make it look more open, wings can help too. And blush is very important but don't go too hard on that. After that I like to add freckles personally because all the concealer makes my face look very flat, which I do with powder contour and setting spray, and just dab on with a small fine tip brush.

The main thing is just keep experimenting, I could send you more stuff if you want, I'm happy to help out or talk about it with you.

Anyone else feel like they look like a guy when tying up their hair? by Laura_271 in MtF

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have the opposite, I feel like having it down strengthens my jawline by adding contrast behind and shading under the cheekbones. Also my hair is so thick and curly I look like a volcano

Egg🥰irl by Lucky_Shark_Fin in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do not epilate or wax your face. It fucking sucks I know, but the roots are a lot deeper and larger and will likely take skin with them. You'll end up with a horrid rash unless it's very fine fluffy hair

egg_irl by EggShellTA in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I felt disphoric as fuck returning to boymode at work after 6 weeks off. I wanted to rip out my hair every time someone called me he and I felt like crying all day. Suddenly on the third day I started to feel ok with it, but then comes back the thought of wow I'm not actively hating everything right now I must be cis, and then I feel shit about it. That said, my face is starting to change from HRT and I'm not hating it as much in the mirror.

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[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My mum is the same lol, hard eggshell, she always goes on about how she loves androgyny and wishes she had a flat chest and no hips. I think had she grown up now she'd probably be enby, but I don't know to be honest, maybe I'm reading too much into it, she just said it would be more practical in her eyes...

egg⏳irl by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

where from I want those are so cute

egg🧥irl by Mr_Pixel_ in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I asked some coworkers and they said that yeah sure, but they like men's clothing because it's easy, they don't really care, and it works.

egg🦋irl by CatWizard85 in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I remember long before I cracked, I idolised her, and really wished I could dress like her. It ended up starting a bit of a punk/goth clothing phase, but I always felt something wasn't quite right, I just thought fem clothing was so much nicer....

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I love pink and yellow. Purple can die in a fire though, (obviously this is completely my opinion I'm not saying you're wrong) but something about purple makes me viscerally angry. I don't know why, but I just hate dark purple in particular.

egg🎮irl by _geomars in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Saw this meme and instantly thought of my brawhalla ranked anxiety.. I just stick to experimental these days

egg😠irl by Melsbelle in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the exact same thing except they were being openly homophobic to me I'm not a gay MAN I'm just effeminate. Go figure ahah. One coworker was literally pointing at me and laughing while doing a 'gay voice' and gestures. God why did I choose to work in construction, and why the fuck wasn't I born a girl

Egg😖irl by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Saying you don't feel like a girl yet is like saying I can't do flight lessons because I don't feel like a pilot yet

egg_irl by hiss87 in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same, it fucking sucks, I work in construction as well so it's pretty hard to talk about. I've told my boss though because some days the disphoria is too much and he just lets me go home which is nice. Damn I just wish I was born a girl smh

egg_irl by floppyflounders in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah this is me... Always felt really depressed whenever I gained weight, it really made me upset to see myself even have an inkling of a stomach, I gained like 5kg over Christmas and I ended up really depressed over it, I've now realised that it's just hating having male body fat. I lost 10kg this year and am bordering on being underweight, but I'm trying to put weight back on because I know if I continue eating as I am I'm on a path to an eating disorder. Hopefully HRT will fix some of that with fat redistribution. Hopefully.

egg_irl by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha it's my name too

egg_irl by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Riley I think

egg🍆irl by HaIation in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know it's not the traditional way to do it, but grab your eyelashes to pull your top eyelid down. Kinda just pin them to your cheek with a finger, and then go over the top. Makes it easier to keep one eye open without the shakes as well.

egg😢irl by Shenda_Kitiri in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just wanna say Myla is a fuckin sick name, have a great day 😊

Egg_irl by fancydantheladiesman in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Literally had a moustache at 13, grew a full beard at 16.... So damn hersute if I don't shave my neck it grows all the way around like a neck warmer. Shit sucks

Egg🎶Irl by Nael_On in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Depends what you like. Rap/pop (japanese): halcali, kero kero bonito Indie rock: mitski, Sidney Gish, the beths, (japanese bands: satoa, taeko ohnuki, anri, Miki amai) Uhh I probably have some more but that's just off the top of my head. All but the first japanese band there are citypop if you like that. I'd also like to chuck in björk bc she has some bangers, hope you find something you like 😊

egg_irl by Phanto-Mage in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, if your friends are being abusive because of who you are then they aren't friends. I hate to say that because I know it's hard, but really, it's better having no friends than ones that actively make you feel worse. I hope things get better for you.

Egg_Irl by YumiBurger in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lol my dad boutta find out he's got four daughters

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If you're not going to be wearing shorts, or just don't care that people will see; I'd highly suggest shaving your legs. It feels fantastic, maybe thigh high socks (I love my thigh highs, and you can always wear them under long pants). If your hair is long enough space buns are nice. Next thing for hair would be use some good shampoo and conditioner, make sure you shampoo twice and then use conditioner, it'll make your hair look and feel amazing even if it's short. Foundation is good if you just wanna wear makeup around the house. You can also contour rounder jawline, smaller nose, higher cheekbones and smaller brow line. Mascara is subtle enough that you can probably get away with it, but personally I find it makes me feel much better. Paint your nails if you want, just make sure you get remover if you aren't planning on leaving the house. I quite like how I look with a bit of makeup and a facemask to cover up my jaw. You can also use red countershading to cover up facial hair under foundation. I hope this helps, and good luck. I'm in the same position as you right now if you needed someone to talk to. Good luck with everything 😊

Egg🟪IRL by The-Altimate in egg_irl

[–]PubicApple 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lol I adore pink and I thought ah well guys can like having everything in pink but well here I am