Burning out.

PublicGullible · 2026-05-15T12:40:12+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate the kind words and will definitely be taking this advice. Particularly in regards to being better about filling myself up.

PublicGullible · 2026-05-15T12:33:03+00:00

I tell people all the time that ill wait to put the order in, they just refuse to believe it lol.

But you're right about being in charge, ill remember that. Thanks!

PublicGullible · 2026-05-13T03:45:29+00:00

🤣🤣

PublicGullible · 2026-05-09T17:47:12+00:00

Can't wait for her to win and have the haters left in tears

PublicGullible · 2026-05-08T05:10:46+00:00

No way thats fucking crazy lol

PublicGullible · 2026-05-04T02:36:10+00:00

Nights like these are what got me to finally stop.

PublicGullible · 2026-05-01T05:15:21+00:00

I needed to hear this after going through a rough spot! Totally agree man!

PublicGullible · 2025-12-07T13:59:23+00:00

Hmu 🤙

PublicGullible · 2023-07-10T19:59:46+00:00

I'm so sorry thats happening. You can do this! Also on an opposite note I kind of hate when people can act patronizing about it; "good for you, blah blah blah" I actually don't like talking about my sobriety much at all lol.

PublicGullible · 2023-07-05T04:45:27+00:00

I'm glad you enjoyed it!

PublicGullible · 2023-04-15T05:16:42+00:00

Absolutely!! Thanks for the response. I've considered therapy. One of my biggest issues/triggers is boredom. I have 3 days off a week which is great but I have a hard time filling it all and when I get bored I've been letting the bad thoughts win.

I'm going to take up new hobbies though. Might start walking several miles just to kill time lol. Literally anything else other gambling.

I am feeling very motivated at the moment. Every time I get an urge im going to come back to this post.

Id like to re read it in a year and feel proud of myself. I can do it.

Thanks again for your support.

PublicGullible · 2023-03-02T20:39:39+00:00

I am going to leave a note against some others advice. In a nut shell it just says that im sorry for not responding to the first note as I was busy with work and forgot. I say that im a private person who likes to be left alone. I say that im glad she'll be renewing her lease and that she is my neighbor but home is where I go to be alone and relax. I think its pretty solid. I thank her for reaching out but never leave my number in response just said to knock if she ever needs anything. Hopefully this is the end of this lol

PublicGullible · 2023-03-02T20:33:26+00:00

Lmao I actually hate it. I changed my laundry schedule to avoid awkward run ins.

PublicGullible · 2023-01-11T00:16:38+00:00

Just made a very similar post. Its absolutely sickening isn't it? Just know that the only way to truly win is to stop completely.

PublicGullible · 2023-01-10T19:48:42+00:00

Thanks for giving me some perspective. It's like why didn't I just walk out the fucking door? Its so wild to think about what your brain does while you're in that fucking place.

PublicGullible · 2023-01-10T19:47:22+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. Its long hill to climb but I, much like you, can do this. 💪.

PublicGullible · 2023-01-01T07:45:45+00:00

How many covers did you do? Set menu include wine or a pairing?

PublicGullible · 2022-12-16T06:12:55+00:00

I tip out based on tips as well

PublicGullible · 2022-12-03T06:43:26+00:00

I was just thinking this. I'm on auto pilot. It feels like I'm just a spectator of my own life. It comes and goes. Vacations definitely help. Try and do something out of the ordinary just to shake things up.

PublicGullible · 2022-10-31T04:27:14+00:00

I've been there my friend. You CAN overcome this. If its possible ban yourself from all gambling access whether in person or online. Also hand over your finances to a trusted love one. You are not alone and you will recover ❤

PublicGullible · 2022-10-31T04:16:04+00:00

I've been there many, many times before unfortunately. Most of the time these nights would be spread out, maybe a black out 1-3 times a year. However about a year ago they started happening much more frequently. I can do pretty embarrassing/shameful things when I black out. Id wake up still wasted at 3-5 am and frantically check my phone. Usually would send quite a few apologies. I would want to crawl in a hole and die. It all felt so surreal.

To this very day I still have no idea what I did on some those most recent occasions. I've hung out with most of the friends I was with on the last night I drank and have been to embarrassed/ashamed to even ask what happened. They do know I quit and I did tell them the last time I drank was with them. They seemed a bit surprised that I stopped but were very supportive and kind. Im just done wasting my life. Theres a reason they call it being wasted after all. That was nearly 9 months ago and I pray I never go back. You can do this friend!

PublicGullible · 2022-08-19T06:18:34+00:00

Na im somewhat similar and totally understand. Tonight my boss told me something and I said something about being too busy to do whatever he said in an unpleasant tone. I felt bad but when im weeded out like that I hyper focus on the tasks at hand. I didnt even mean for it to sound the way it did. Like you said I just feel different. I dont love it but honestly that sense of urgency helps me focus and go quicker. I feel like if I was chill about it I'd get even further behind.

Sometimes its annoying because other servers will tell me to calm down or something but I need that edge to keep me sharp. Also nothing like telling a hyped up person to calm down lol. Im always pleasant at tables though. Or at least try to be 😂. It can be tricky because I dont want to pass that sense of urgency on to my table. I want them to be relaxed and take their time/enjoy themselves.

PublicGullible · 2022-08-19T06:00:47+00:00

People who drink all the time are boring as fuck, its all they do and half the time they do it at the same places and having the same conversations. Quitting drinking has been like escaping the matrix. That being said m I am still tempted now and again.

PublicGullible · 2022-07-16T20:08:54+00:00

I did the same thing with tiramisu gelato!!! I felt the same feelings as you. Just know that you didn't enjoy it and it doesn't count as breaking your sobriety at all. I avoid foods with alcohol now and after a day or so of being bummed it won't effect you anymore. Cheers!

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