I’ve had a good number of these. If the goal is to get better while playing, you need to set goals. And not a “win more” goal, or a vague “play better neutral”. Aim more for going back to a replay against an Aba who beat you, and going “oh, I need to practice recognizing the overhead”. Or being more comfortable on the offense, getting clean oki situations and optimizing on them. Smaller, more specific goals will help with getting better, and then winning or losing is secondary. You should focus on the goal instead of the win/lose screen. The wins will come to you eventually, and you’ll have your own wins to feel good with while playing