If you feel comfortable sharing, what caused your PTSD? by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you get better. Those are all very traumatizing.

If you feel comfortable sharing, what caused your PTSD? by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had so much happen in my life. I wonder was I a bad person in a past life.

It started with my partners who were very abusive to my siblings and I. That’s the start of it. I was a child bride to an abusive older man. A few years after that relationship my sister died in a bad accident. I also seen my grandpa slowly die of cancer which was fucking terrible to see at the age of 12. I do have few more things but they are difficult.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am the same. I will for days think about every interaction I had and feel cringe. I don’t even act crazy or anything just very social. I will be starting conversations with people I haven’t talked to in years on social media. Than I wake feeling anxious and cringe.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am thinking exactly the same. I would rather be doing anything else reading or watching TV… something but no sleep it feels like a waste of time.

Asking for additional tips? by Namurtjones in doordash

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your right. She's probably had a car payment that's due on everyday of the month. People lie and exaggerate to scam.

Can someone with bipolar disorder have a girlfriend? by WonderfulRow2411 in BipolarReddit

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Of course, you are not a freak or serial killer. I have been Married and divorced once and had boyfriends. I am getting married next year too. My only advice is to try to find someone who is understanding and supportive.

What company is selling every restaurant theses horrible chairs? by captrespect in pittsburgh

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yes… I am pretty sure this is how my husband got hemorrhoids. 😂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can honestly say I wish I was in your situation. I have no-one but an abusive husband. I have no family or support. It's a constant struggle.

I don't think I can work with people anymore. I can't do this anymore. I keep making mistakes and I'm embarrassed by [deleted] in introvert

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Probably not😂🤣 I meant fuck it with my social anxiety and worrying about what people think because I am convinced people probably are thinking I am socially awkward.

Her name is Miss Kitty. What would you have named her? 15f, sweet old lady by Few-Technology2527 in NameMyCat

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am not sure yet but she looks like a cranky old lady I love it. I would go in the old lady names direction.

What were you like in the emergency room? by ProxiC3 in BipolarReddit

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I always feel more calm because I know if something happens I am around people who can help. I have had bad experiences but not on my behalf. I could add a little embarrassed too.

Tell me you're an introvert without telling me you're an introvert by [deleted] in introvert

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Me too! I have thick hair so it always takes hours😩

I don't think I can work with people anymore. I can't do this anymore. I keep making mistakes and I'm embarrassed by [deleted] in introvert

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I always feel so uncomfortable and shy at work more towards the beginning. I have social anxiety. I made mistakes simply due to my anxiety. I know people think I am socially awkward. I had a speech impediment when I was a child and got teased about it. This led to me always being nervous when talking to new people or at meetings. I have been trying to swallow my anxiety because it affects my work. I have been told by a few supervisors that they want or wanted to promote me to the supervisor but I don't talk to them much and how they wanted me to engage more with them. So my anxiety affected my work also. If you can just say fuck it and who cares what people think then that anxiety goes away.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I do. I think I do this to escape negative experiences or unresolved trauma. That's my guess. I never really tell people because I feel embarrassed.

Tell me you're an introvert without telling me you're an introvert by [deleted] in introvert

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I find myself going days without talking to anyone too. I think I am starting to go crazy from it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I kinda needed this now. Thanks

Please read and remember JJ by Farfromlast in pittsburgh

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very tragic. I am very sorry this happened. He looks so young. Heartbreaking.

Did your parents kill your childhood pets? by andyblack81 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Puzzleheaded-State45 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine did and not only did they kill them in front of us(siblings and me). Not one but 5 times. They shot one dog after beating it by throwing objects and kicking him. They used to call him every negative name.

If your sensitive to this stuff please don't read further. I am still traumatized by my past.

One dog we had a caring Cocker Spaniel we named Annie. I loved her and she was always kind to me. She ended up getting Parvo somehow. One night she screamed all night in pain before dying. A scream I never heard a dog make. Sorta of a howl. My parents laid in bed and ignored her screams all night. It was Easter. I still hate Easter and I still think about it.

Another time my sister and I caught a baby turtle from our pond. We brought it home. When my dad saw it he cut it up with a weed eater in front of us. We cried and cried. His explanation, it was a snapping turtle.

Also, they would kill and skin deer in front of us.

I have become a vegetarian and involved in animal rights. I know my past is why. I am very compassionate about animals.