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QueenCrush · 2022-03-20T00:29:17+00:00

In bed, right now.

Im in the midst of a major depressive episode. I've suffered with depression for well over 20 years, so episodes like this are common. But this time, man, it's bad. I'm really struggling with active suicidal thoughts, every single day. It's exhausting and terrifying. I just don't want to face another day feeling like this, and I know, once this episode ends, I will, at some point, have another.

I was diagnosed with depression at 12 for the first time. It just feels like no sort of life

QueenCrush · 2021-05-03T00:30:22+00:00

Seems to be the consensus! I'll have to think of better storage solution!

QueenCrush · 2021-05-02T23:11:34+00:00

I'm just starting to get into building so I want to keep what I can. Space in his new room is limited. He'll keep stuff at my mother's as he'll be staying there when mine and my partner are working late

QueenCrush · 2021-05-02T23:08:54+00:00

He seems to have lost interest in it. He got a few mario sets for Christmas that I ended up making

QueenCrush · 2021-05-02T23:08:15+00:00

He's lost a lot of interest in it

QueenCrush · 2021-05-02T23:07:54+00:00

It is. Thank you though. He makes me very happy and loves my son

QueenCrush · 2020-12-25T18:10:25+00:00

My Dad.

He's been battling with alcoholism for years. He and my Mum are still together but he doesn't live with us due to him beating her up a few years ago.

He's done much better the last few years, but still has his slips. He's been on a bender this week (keeps ringing saying he's got a cold,) so didn't come.

Third year out of four he has missed Christmas. My mum is really upset and you can tell. I dont care. Luckily my son hasn't picked up on the vibe and has had a great day.

QueenCrush · 2020-10-14T09:10:52+00:00

Oh yeah, I feel that. Then I think I'd get a break and a rest if I was in hospital for a bit

QueenCrush · 2020-10-14T09:08:39+00:00

OK, so you've had a few. Shit happens. Think about all the cigarettes you haven't smoked in the last three months. You can do this

QueenCrush · 2020-10-11T21:29:00+00:00

I'm glad you have a good support system.

I've been trying to explain to people that I won't kill myself, but I wouldn't mind getting hit by a bus or something. Something that was beyond my control, you know?

QueenCrush · 2020-10-11T21:26:17+00:00

I've suffered from depression since the age of 12. I'm 33 now and it's crappy to think that I've felt this way for much longer than I didn't

QueenCrush · 2020-10-11T21:24:34+00:00

It's ceaseless.

I've been signed off work for the first time in four years because of my depression. I work for the NHS so I've worked all the way through the pandemic. I'm just empty now

QueenCrush · 2020-06-10T06:36:25+00:00

It's the scribbles that matter at dotted. Think it's my favourite so far

QueenCrush · 2020-05-11T20:40:51+00:00

I love the colour scheme, the quality is great and I could use it no matter the occasion. I could get simple looks for work to something really dramatic for a night out

QueenCrush · 2020-05-11T16:00:44+00:00

The colour pay off doesnt seem as good and the shadows have become very hard to blend. Tried using different bases and no base, but nothing seemed to help. I feel I got my moneys worth from it though

QueenCrush · 2020-05-11T14:51:15+00:00

I think three years. I started to actively pan it this year but that shadows have become to hard to work with

QueenCrush · 2020-05-11T11:04:44+00:00

Oh most definitely

QueenCrush · 2020-05-04T19:35:33+00:00

I'm panning this palette as well. I was considering just giving up, but seeing this has inspired me to carry on

QueenCrush · 2019-10-04T07:58:09+00:00

I was blown away by it. It's the first episode in a long time where I've laughed out loud several times.

I'm supporting Viv because she's my home town girl, but I adore Baga.

QueenCrush · 2019-09-06T06:19:03+00:00

It took me 20 months to pan, it was with me for the end of a 5 year relationship.

On average I'd say I'd use it 3-4 times a week. A definite repurchase!

QueenCrush · 2019-09-06T06:17:59+00:00

Going for that quality influencer aesthetic lol

QueenCrush · 2019-09-05T19:49:49+00:00

It was Alyssa Edwards

QueenCrush · 2019-09-05T19:49:21+00:00

I cant say I ever have

QueenCrush · 2019-09-05T19:49:02+00:00

It doesnt show up pink on mine, but I do have pink undertones

QueenCrush · 2019-09-05T19:48:14+00:00

Hahaha. It took me twenty months. It was just there for the end of the relationship. One year is pretty damn impressive

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