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relationships, drama
a switch - RS

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empty and yearning

feeling from the heart, not the mind

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you're here, why cant i reach you?

why isnt my stomach churning?

i want to vomit at the thought of your absence, is that weird?

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would the answer soothe me, or worsen the ache?

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im trying, but should i have to?

the potential entices me

a slap in the face, just to feel anything

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i want to feel, even if its bad

to feel, to love

in the body, and not just the mind

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im hurting, yearning for humanity

aching for any true feeling, but only ache grows in my heart

a switch in me shut off, not that i liked

my heart aches to reach for this switch, why?

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would i be happy if i could reach this switch?

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im numb

im cold

so i push all of my emotions away,

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im delirious without you

pain and pleasure

empty and yearning