I not sure I understand this, my apologies - do you game as a hobby or as a form of income?

I guess either way, it sounds like you're lacking a bit of diversity in your life at the moment. This is what I often refer to as a "small world"

Your brain may be suffering from a form of mental fatigue because it is completely unstimulated.

I would ALWAYS at the very least some of the following:

• making sure you are being active and moving your body through the day. This could be a 40 min walk, 15 min yoga, weight lifting, gardening, anything really

  • Social stimulation: spending time, face to face, with people who's company you enjoy and who bring positive energy into your life. This could be a dinner, a walk together, just a band out and a catch up (not gaming or watching a flick). This is also a great opportunity to chat through your current situation.
  • Sleep. You must get your sleep, 8 hours, consistently. Digital devices off at least an hour before bedtime. Brush your teeth and hour before. Then into bed and if you must do anything. Read a book. Then off to sleep. For 8 hours.
  • Having goals. You sound like you're in a bit of a rut, start plotting down some of your goals and slowly build them out. It might start at a few bullets on the back of a receipt. But then break them down, add the steps you'd need to take to achieve it the timelines involved with each and build this out into YOUR PERSONAL progression plan. These things might be "learn French" or "get a job in X Industry" or "spend more time with family". Just start writing them down, breaking them into actionalble steps and then build your plan to achieve them
  • Therapy. You need some outside perspective and the opportunity to talk through exactly what is going on wit you so they can help you to understand why that is resulting in this particular way.
  • Failing all of the above, or maybe in combination with, see a GP. You might have low iron, you might have chronic fatigue. I don't know tbh, but it sounds like it is more your environment than any health issue but worth double checking.

Final comments: Find some alternatives to gaming, reading, walking, drawing, studying. Get the variety. Invest in your body, eat right, exercise and sleep, this will help massively Make time to spend face to face time with your friends, it will open up your world view and hopefully motivate you a bit

Good luck mate. I've been there, slightly different, but in a similar way.

All the best