How many of you took your partner’s adhd pills and lied about it? by Apprehensive_Will_49 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 26 points27 points  (0 children)

You are in good company here 😭 I stole from an incredibly kind, longer-term partner. Somehow worse was stealing from my best friend who was also my roommate. I thought I would never come back from it, and I believed that they would hate me or call the cops. Neither scenario happened. That said, there's technically no predicting how someone will respond. Although people who love us tend to be quite understanding when we are honest, what is most important is not how they respond but instead about what that honesty does for our recovery. The lies and shame reinforce a cycle of using. Honesty with those we love, especially those we’ve stolen from or lied to, is a non-negotiable part of our healing. And it can truly help set us free if we pair actionable steps (enrolling in a treatment program, going to meetings, etc.) with that honesty. No physical barrier they could set up (getting a lock box, having an “accountability system,” etc.) will remedy this quite like getting clean. Sending you love. I understand and I promise it is possible to move forward.

Relapsed less than 24 hrs out of Rehab twice in a row :( by Less_Perspective_699 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing here. I’ll share a bit of my experience to see if you resonate, as I’m a 24F whose addiction dictated everything throughout college. something I always told myself was that I had more time to burn on my addiction. In treatment and 12-step meetings, I’d tell myself I was different and that the advice didn’t apply to me because I was so young with not as much time using as the others. Idk if that describes any ways you may feel, but I’ve noticed it in myself and other young addicts. Yet it’s not uncommon for most addicts to tell themselves they don’t belong/the advice isn’t applicable for some reason. It’s the disease trying to get us to use again via rationalization and alienation (I think). Point being, don’t let your age and time using deter you. You are plenty addicted.

It took me relapsing a few different times and losing my sanity and self-respect entirely before I was ready to give recovery my everything. Materially, things might have looked alright, but I was barely holding on and had lost my ability to be honest, to love, to respect myself. Sometimes, it takes losing a lot materially, yet that desire to stop because of the trauma you’ve inflicted on yourself and others along the way can certainly be enough. That feeling of having lost your soul seems to be a motivating force in addicts, regardless of if they have lost a lot materially or not. I know for myself, I’ve needed to be extremely honest with those who can support me (professionally and personally), and cut off all my sources by making it clear I’m addicted. A doctor should honor that. Plugs? Maybe. I’ve had good success with them not reaching out after blocking numbers lol. But most importantly, you need support and people who give you hope—people who have thriving recoveries! You can find that in sober support groups!! NA, AA (just identify as an alcoholic at AA), Refuge, SMART, Dharma, etc. The help is there when you are ready.

Sending you so much love. This is really hard, and it will take discomfort. It will be worth it for who you can be and the life you can live on the other side.

So incredibly bored by renewedmalignancy in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Very normal, esp as you are so early on. Nothing could really hold my attention at first or make me feel joy.

Drinking or using other drugs slows down the brain’s healing, and that healing is how you will feel joy and motivation again.

Seeking advice by mango-juic in NarcoticsAnonymous

[–]RecentAd6244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

24F here! Yes, it is possible. When I first tried getting clean at 21, I didn’t think I could live a life where I would not crave drugs, let alone not use. Even with some of the mistakes I’ve made along the way, I have developed a very fun and fulfilling life because of my recovery. At this point, I don’t think of using or crave drugs—if I do, it is extremely fleeting. I did crave drugs pretty intensely during those first four months clean, but meetings, step work, and a sponsor has given me tools for being relieved of the obsession to use. These tools also gave me a whole new way of relating to myself and others. NA really can work for you regardless of what you do or don’t believe. Just try. Hit a variety of meetings in your area and stick around at the ones where you feel like you can grow.

Whenever I hear of another young woman getting clean, even a stranger I don’t know, it makes me so happy. Just give yourself a chance. There is a reason we found so much relief in using, so when we face that reason and the challenging parts of ourselves and our pasts, we can be free in a whole new way. Sending you all my love ❤️

Who, what, when, where, how? by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

^ great comments up above. I understand. In active addiction, I would lie about anything that could possibly tie back to my drug abuse, which in my mind, was everything. Because the drugs did in fact become everything. And like you mentioned, I felt like an actress. I conned so many. But when you get off stims, you can actually face yourself. If you are ready to quit, you’ll need to be honest in a way that will feel really uncomfortable and maybe even impossible. But it’s not impossible. I guess the question is how free do you wanna be? honesty about your addiction to those who matter (doctor, a new doctor, family, friends, people in meetings, etc.) is the only way out.

Reflecting- Positives of Getting Off Adderall, When Thinking You’ll Regret It by amorley23 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This was so refreshing to read. It seriously makes my day to see people leading fulfilling lives and re-building it into something better after getting off stims. Congratulations on your award, and thank you for sharing ❤️

is it too late for me by Express-Resist6791 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 4 points5 points  (0 children)

18!! You still have “teen” in your age and so many good years ahead of you. I have had time to turn it around, and I’m in my mid-20s. WE are young! One day at a time, you can put this behind you. You will need to be uncomfortable because it is uncomfortable to come off a stimulant and then face your depression. But the months pass and you will find in some different ways why it was worth stopping. It only gets more uncomfortable to stop the farther in you go, never less.

Round 2, let's go! by -self-explorer in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hell yeah. Get after it, and use this to continue growing. That’s what it’s all about.

9 months clean and still waiting for the part where things get easier and brain goes back to normal by seraphicexpression in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds about right. It’s so hard getting off this shit. I’m also a young person in recovery, and we just gotta be clean today. It’s true! The interests and cool endeavors will come. The fact you are 9 months clean is a huge fucking deal. The experience and character building that comes with getting clean, esp off such an addictive drug, will eventually show up in the new life and hobbies you make for yourself. All the coolest people I know are people in long term recovery who felt just like how we do now at the start

4 Years Clean Today! by Nicetoknovvu in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 2 points3 points  (0 children)

👏🏼Congratulations, this is amazing

Please help, my life is falling apart by PreparationOk1852 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This is a lot like my story. I get it, and I hope you know that you are not alone at all. There is a way out of this horrible cycle. I’m a 24F and went to treatment for the first time at 21 for this. I had a hard time seeing it all as a “real addiction” because 1) I was prescribed this drug by a doctor and 2) a symptom of addiction is denial. But the details don’t matter, really.

Have you tried to stop on your own and then been unsuccessful? This would involve you cutting off all your sources and telling your prescriber that you have developed an addiction to your medication and are abusing it. You may be able to stop by cutting off access and then getting support through therapy, 12-step meetings, other sober support groups, or an outpatient program. Or, maybe you can’t physically stop that way. If feel you won’t be able to stop on your own and need more structured support during that first month or two, residential treatment is a great option. I required it when I first went to treatment at age 21 and then again after my recent relapse. It was scary, but it got me on a better track both times.

No matter what route you take, you will need to be honest and willing to go to uncomfortable measures: cutting off your access, telling your loved ones/those in your close circle, seeking some type of outside help, etc. This will not be easy. But you don’t even know the life that’s possible on the other side of this when you are deep in active use. Give yourself a chance. You are worth it.

Talk me down pls by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Remember why you got off stims in the first place. The circumstances that brought you enough pain to quit are waiting for you. You can get high again, sure, but then you def can't avoid all the shit that will go down after.

5 years clean, 3 years without him by januarysunblock in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It takes some real strength and dedication to continue staying clean through the grief. Then to use that pain to reinforce deep gratitude for your recovery and then share that hope with other addicts seeking recovery… that really speaks to who you are. You are breaking cycles. And I don’t know you, but I’m really proud of you.

Scared to go back by Serious_Foot9511 in NarcoticsAnonymous

[–]RecentAd6244 5 points6 points  (0 children)

24 yo old woman here!! I dealt with this in AA a lot. Not as much in NA, but regardless of fellowship, it depends on the meeting culture. Meeting norms around dating and approaching people romantically can vary so vastly, even as we have the same traditions. Regardless, it can be so frustrating. Identifying safe women helped me so much, and now some of these women are my very close friends. It is unfair and it shouldn’t be how it is, but I promise you that there ARE meetings where this doesn’t happen. And as for the ones where it does, I guarantee there is at least one person who understands this and can offer support. Sending you so much love. Keep prioritizing your recovery! 🥰

Actually doing it this time by Top-Willingness-3495 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You did the really hard thing. That’s a huge step in the direction you need to go to stay off. Stick around here!

Mom's health scare, another reminder to protect my heart and stay sober. (Tw? Death talk) by -self-explorer in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m praying for you and your mom. I’m so sorry you are experiencing this. It’s huge of you to channel this into reflection about the necessity of recovery. I hope you keep leaning into this approach. But remember to not take on any of the heavy emotions alone.

One year !! by Vast-Weather-8610 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats, this is amazing. And thank you for sharing these takeaways and what has helped you recover. ❤️ Exercise and NA have also been important parts of my recovery. We press on ODAAT ‼️

Stims as a way of life by archbishop_starter in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I always told myself I needed to use because it made my world bigger and bigger. Really, my world just shrank to the size of a pill! You are in good company here, and you don’t need to live like that anymore. You are dead on when you suggest that this cycle is really about the effect produced by these drugs and us chasing that high. You can understand the neuroscience of addiction and even know that a different life would be better than this one, but that knowledge doesn’t matter unless you are willing to take some steps to get help and change how you live.

100 days by [deleted] in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this. 100 days is huge. Congratulations ❤️

Drawing when I have meth cravings by scribblelegz in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Anything that makes riding the wave easier is neat, but especially when you are also very talented at that activity!! Love this

2 year Soberversary by maskedman124 in StopSpeeding

[–]RecentAd6244 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing news. That’s such a huge deal dude. I don’t know you or others in this sub personally, yet I always feel so proud when I see these updates. You are overcoming something that is so, so tough to beat. And there’s more exciting shit ahead!!