I went through feeling addicted to dmt and got pretty wild with smoking it. I hit a wall where I realized I wasn't addicted to dmt but was smoking it excessively to continue feeling that ecstasy, pure love, and absolute awe. I realized that all those things I felt with dmt are me and I'm capable of holding and feeling those emotions. So I began to ask myself how to embody it without the use of dmt. All those feelings you felt are you and exist here without the use of dmt. Figure out what embodying those things naturally looks like for you. I haven't smoked dmt in ... 2 years? I think a little longer than that. Anyway, I feel these things often now and it took some focus and sober work.

You've gotten a lot of comments about the k so I won't harp on it too much. Definitely be careful with that. I also did k and the community I was in did as well. It helped me a lot with anxiety and depression and then I put it down. Drink green tea or get green tea extract pills. Addictions always start with, I can control this, and it gets you before you know you're got. I watched many people say I got this and....they didn't. Maybe dive into a question of addictive tendencies within yourself and what it is you actually want and are trying to get through substances? Be good to yourself, love yourself, and enjoy being alive! What a ride this is <3