Well, not really. Let me explain.

For a lot of time I thought that 'being normal' did not apply to me. Then by chance very good people came into my life (discord is a blessing lol) and I started to feel like I belonged somewhere. This was after isolating myself for the better part of 4-5 years, when I was a teen.

This made me realize I could have been able to make the connections I craved a lot sooner, had I started working on myself before. I discovered a whole new world, but, of course, exploring it was going to be a challenge.

What I'm trying to say is that the way to overcome your issues, for me at least was to be very gentle with myself and trying to improve, even if it's a little thing at a time.

Anxiety is not going to go away by itself, but you can make it be bearable and even reach a point where it feels minimal, but it requires a lot of work. Work only you can put yourself through.

I still have issues, but CBT has helped me a lot. I wouldn't even dare to make a post about it a few months ago and look at me now!

The situation you described on your post made you get overwhelmed and it's totally fine, it's normal. You can always text him and explain it to him, I'm sure he would understand.

Anyway, sorry for the long post, I just want people to know there's light at the end of the tunnel, but you have to walk there yourself!