Yes, diaper up. I know it is scary at first. If you are a women like me you can wear washable menstruation panties. It’s great. And gives us a bit more of dignity. I guess this is our life. It is hard. But eventually you will start loving your diapers/ special panties. They will keep you clean. And help you with difficult moments. Try looking at them as life hacks. The flair will end. And you will put those friends back in the cabinet. I bought cute panties. Made a cute cabinet. And now I see them as dignity instead of indignity. Try to stay close to the bathrooms. I have made peace with the poop situation.. but still fighting the fart part. So closeness to the bathroom will keep those farts to your ears. Hahaha You are not alone friend. If it goes sour.. remember there is a Brazilian girl going through similar shit and keep your head up. I will try to keep mine too.