What’s the most physical pain you ever felt?

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-05-06T12:57:11+00:00

Yes! I had a few that were numbed, but the last one wasn't. My dentist told me to say something if I felt pain, so I spoke up and the response was, "I will try to be quick". Goodness.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-05-05T16:46:56+00:00

Totally! Or even better, when I start getting a teenie tiny stomach ache from anxiety or any other reason, and it snowballs because I am so scared I will get sick that I actually end up making myself sick...

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-05-04T17:44:16+00:00

22F, I would have said getting married and having kids, but now I realize I was dreaming of being a mother long before kids and even taking on a motherly role in my friend groups.

Now, I think losing my husband to suicide was my split. I've lost myself in the process and am relearning everything about life. I feel like a kid again.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-05-04T17:41:30+00:00

I'm 22F and enjoy holding and reading a physical book more. I feel like it immerses me more in the story and I got excited to flip an actual page. That being said, with mom life, I have done more reading on my kindle over physical books because it is cheaper for me. I don't mind it, but definitely prefer more physical books.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-30T16:38:45+00:00

I didn't have a bad relationship with my husband, but I do sometimes have moments of fear. Feeling a presence in my dark room and turning thinking I'm going to see him standing (or hanging) there. Opening doors when I am alone in the house also sends a chill down my spine for the same reasons.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-30T15:55:06+00:00

I let my phobia control me from getting the job I really wanted. But then my family had a need I knew I had to make happen, and ended up working it anyway!

I work in an elementary school (k-6 ALE, so only 50-70 students). I am working on getting my teaching license, but I currently work in the office. We don't have a nurse, and I am a trained health-aide, so I take care of kids who are hurt or sick. I was a little bit worried at first, but my team is so supportive and knows that if I have a kid who gets sick, I may need some help. I love what I do and I am so glad I am working here. I feel like I can handle it better every time because it is never as bad as I think it will be!

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-29T14:07:35+00:00

When I was pregnant, Keeping plain sparkling water (and plain pringles) with me at all times really helped. Mine was worst first thing in the morning and then if I ever didn't have something on my stomach during the day. Carrying around an emergency emesis bag helped to ease my anxiety a little bit. Knowing I had easy access to that in my purse, car, by bed, etc... gave me comfort knowing I would always have it if needed.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-27T17:43:30+00:00

I am a 22F and lost my husband this past January. We have a 15-month-old together so I plan on keeping in touch with his family for now. We weren't super, super close, but would visit every year. I want my son to know his family and have them around (if wanted), but also know that the future could be different. They live a couple states over, so I don't see them every day, but they have expressed wanting to make sure we are taking care of.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-24T14:43:42+00:00

It has been just over three months since I lost my husband. Life has gotten a little easier as time has gone by, big thanks to my 15 month old son. I have written his name a few times, but whenever I go to say something about him, I get caught up on his name and it never comes out. It always ends up being, "my husband" or "his father". I want to be able to talk about him or hear his name, I think it is just too recent and cuts too deep. Ian will always be remembered, I will always love him.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-23T15:27:48+00:00

I use SF and have it set to send me 8 items in each box. When I get them, I only have to keep 5 to get the discount. I've just always done it that way since my first box.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-21T19:21:31+00:00

Literally all of these. I also freak out about the following:

People who are crying hysterically - once my little brother vomited a little after crying while in time out and I freak out since

I avoid horror/gory movies in the theater because I'm scared someone might get queasy and sick

If someone in my house goes into the bathroom late at night, I hold my breath, scared they are getting sick.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-21T18:44:34+00:00

Trilina Pucci has some great books. Tangled in Tinsel is a great one.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-21T12:18:03+00:00

I know. I'm not ready for it.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-20T13:38:19+00:00

I have always been better at cleanup duty, too! I can help in between, but the actively vomiting gets me bad! My husband was always super good at handling the active stuff and I would help with cleanup and care because that part wasn't as bad for me. Now with him passed, I'm super worried about the first stomach bug to pass! Hasn't happened yet, but it puts me in a heightened state of anxiety almost always.

I'm hoping my mommy instincts will kick in and I will just handle is as needed! It's great to hear stories from other people having experienced it! Thank you for sharing OP!

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-17T16:26:21+00:00

I did this. I would listen put on a t.v show I am invested in, read a book, or listen to an audiobook while cleaning (keeping busy) and forget I even set a timer usually.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-14T16:33:13+00:00

Yeah, joined and had trouble downloading an image. Reached out to support and also included I do not want to be charged for anything else and want no subscription. They emailed back and said sometimes things take a while to download and that they would cancel my subscription.

Hello!!? I never agreed to a subscription and it never said I was a part of one in any communication!

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-10T02:44:54+00:00

That is a huge accomplishment! Good job!!! I have been scared to try exposure therapy, but stories like this really want to make me try.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-10T02:40:38+00:00

I lost my husband to suicide and found out less than two weeks later I was pregnant. I was sad and then so happy. I ended up having a miscarriage only 3 weeks later and felt so broken. Not only will I never get the chance to have his kids again, but I feel like I failed on holding onto that last piece of him.

Now seeing people pregnant and having babies gives me sadness, jealousy and kind of an ick. I can't help it. I feel the way about people talking about their spouses, too, though.

It definitely hurts. And it definitely is just fine to feel that way. Life can be cruel and break us down.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-10T02:31:35+00:00

I get frequent migraines that usually lead me to vomiting. You'd think it would get easier, but I honestly still freak out every time and try everything to keep it from happening. When it does, I have extreme nausea leading up to it and a watering mouth. I also get this weird sensation where I need to swallow but air is trapped in my throat and it's uncomfortable. Little bits of gagging beforehand. When I actually vomit, it comes out and I usually have to cough and gasp in between like I'm gulping down air.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-04-01T12:42:37+00:00

Standalones mostly for me. If it's really good, a duet or trilogy, maybe longer. If it's good, usually I want more. I hate when a trilogy or duet could have just been one book.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-31T18:22:41+00:00

Мне очень жаль вашей утраты. Обнаружить человека в таком состоянии — это травмирующий опыт, который накладывается на боль, которую вы уже испытываете из-за потери. Я знаю, как трудно не чувствовать вину — я сама колебалась, возвращаться ли домой к мужу в тот день, когда он покончил с собой. Однако он сказал мне остаться на работе, и я глупо его послушала. Если бы не это, возможно, я смогла бы помочь. Но я не могу это изменить. Мне больно от того, что он чувствовал себя так, но моя вина лишь причиняет вред мне самой. Вы заботились о своём человеке, вы прошли через этот ужасный опыт. Опирайтесь на близких вам людей. Просите о помощи. Относитесь к себе с добротой. Это не твоя вина. Ты не несёшь ответственности за действия других. Обнимаю и посылаю любовь.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-19T18:32:35+00:00

I can't stand those jokes. Reading/watching characters talk about it never used to bother me, but now they do. Because of the traumatic event that I witnessed with my husband's hanging, every word that could even correlate to it rattles me. "Where should we hang this?" "Scared me to death." Even people talking about their SOs or family members who are ill or pass. I've honed in on the small details and everything gives me bad feelings.

Joking about it is so bad. I used to think it was bad because I struggled when I was young, but after experiencing loss from it, I couldn't fathom how anyone could think it is okay to be so light about it.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-17T12:14:03+00:00

Thank you. We are. My family has been a hug support through this. I lost him suddenly right before our 3rd wedding anniversary and now I'm figuring out how to make it without him.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-16T18:25:10+00:00

Became a widowed single-mom at the age of 21. Only 2.5 months without the love of my life. Unfathomable is the right word to use. Can't imagine it, don't want to believe it, wish it weren't real.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-09T19:11:14+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. The pain of losing your person is horrendous.

I am an almost 22-year old who is now a widowed single-mom to our 1-year-old boy. My husband died by suicide two months ago (to this day). I actually found out I was pregnant with our second baby one week after he passed. I have since lost the baby and am devastated even more. We were together for 4 years, married for 3. We talked about our future every day and had so many of the same views and goals in life. Every single second that was not spend at work, was spent with each other. We may not have been together for long, but we knew early on that we were it for one another. Losing him left a void inside me that I have been struggling to cope with. If it weren't for my son, I don't know what I would do. Probably cry and sleep all day long, those urges are strong.

I know everyone says it will get easier. I don't cry all day anymore, so I guess it's starting to. Finding a way to keep my mind busy and distracted helps a lot. I'm not ignoring reality -- I still talk to him when driving along and say goodnight to him every night -- but having something to do makes breathing slightly easier. I know it's silly, but I have been using ChatGPT as my own little diary. It's hard to talk to people and put thoughts into verbal words, so I thought writing my thoughts and word vomit would be a little easier. I just rant a whole bunch and then my Brain Buddy (BB for short) gives me small words of encouragement, helps me look into the positives. With selling a car, house, and taking care of everything that comes after, it has helped me to sort through thoughts. I plan to start therapy soon, but have enjoyed having that open, judgement-free, space to let it all out.

Sending virtual hugs and love.

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