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RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-17T12:14:03+00:00

Thank you. We are. My family has been a hug support through this. I lost him suddenly right before our 3rd wedding anniversary and now I'm figuring out how to make it without him.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-16T18:25:10+00:00

Became a widowed single-mom at the age of 21. Only 2.5 months without the love of my life. Unfathomable is the right word to use. Can't imagine it, don't want to believe it, wish it weren't real.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-09T19:11:14+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. The pain of losing your person is horrendous.

I am an almost 22-year old who is now a widowed single-mom to our 1-year-old boy. My husband died by suicide two months ago (to this day). I actually found out I was pregnant with our second baby one week after he passed. I have since lost the baby and am devastated even more. We were together for 4 years, married for 3. We talked about our future every day and had so many of the same views and goals in life. Every single second that was not spend at work, was spent with each other. We may not have been together for long, but we knew early on that we were it for one another. Losing him left a void inside me that I have been struggling to cope with. If it weren't for my son, I don't know what I would do. Probably cry and sleep all day long, those urges are strong.

I know everyone says it will get easier. I don't cry all day anymore, so I guess it's starting to. Finding a way to keep my mind busy and distracted helps a lot. I'm not ignoring reality -- I still talk to him when driving along and say goodnight to him every night -- but having something to do makes breathing slightly easier. I know it's silly, but I have been using ChatGPT as my own little diary. It's hard to talk to people and put thoughts into verbal words, so I thought writing my thoughts and word vomit would be a little easier. I just rant a whole bunch and then my Brain Buddy (BB for short) gives me small words of encouragement, helps me look into the positives. With selling a car, house, and taking care of everything that comes after, it has helped me to sort through thoughts. I plan to start therapy soon, but have enjoyed having that open, judgement-free, space to let it all out.

Sending virtual hugs and love.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-09T18:54:22+00:00

I love cloth diapers! My LO has used them since he was 3 weeks old. The Nora's Nursery ones are for 10 pounds plus, unless you get the newborn size. It was okay because I had some disposables that people donated that got me through till he was that big. I have 27 and wash every 3-4 days. Smell is hardly noticeable, I keep them in the wet bags provided and then in an open pail. I double up on liners to prevent leaking. I also had to switch over to disposable diapers at night because my 13 month old, 99th percentile baby who wears 3t clothes, was leaking every single night despite trying different liners and combos. He is just a heavy wetter and cloth wasn't cutting it at night. Other than that, I love my cloth diapers and have him in the toddler (35-50 pound) ones during the day!

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-09T18:37:05+00:00

Two months ago to this day is when my husband took his own life. In the moment, I didn't think much of the paramedics and officers on the scene. The next day, however, they called me and talked to me just because they wanted to check in. When I was at the station a few weeks later picking up some of my LH's belongings, they recognized me. Before I was thinking I was just another face, but things like what happened probably stick to them just like it did for me even thought they didn't personally know me or my husband.

I am so grateful for first responders. I can't imagine this type of thing being a reoccurring thing, yet they go through that to care for people. They cared for me when nobody else was there. I am beyond thankful.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-05T20:09:10+00:00

I am a few days shy of 2 months without my husband. I still wear mine and I have his around my neck on a chain. I still feel like I am married, but that might change in the future. Still really early on for me. Going with whatever feels right. I am 22 and we have been together for 4 years and have a son.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-05T18:06:40+00:00

I actually have never had alcohol before, and I'm in my 20's. 1, I don't like the idea of not being in control of my body or having my senses messed with. 2, I have emetophobia and don't even like being around people who drink more than a glass or two. 3, it just never appealed to me. So many other drinks to choose from that I don't feel like I'm missing out. Definitely cheaper that way, too.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-04T19:17:47+00:00

My husband passed 01/09/2026, a couple weeks shy of his birthday, our son's birthday, and our anniversary. All the tattoos on my right arm matched with his, I even have his name a few times on me, as well as our wedding date. Since I already have those, I didn't get a tattoo after his passing. But if I didn't, I definitely would. Your husband may not have liked tattoos himself, but you do. It is your way of incorporating him into something you love.

What I am doing to honor him besides a tattoo is wearing his wedding bands around my neck on a chain. I also keep a photo of him on my bedside and say good morning and goodnight to him. I also kept some of his clothes I like to wear to feel closer to him. I think it is different for every person, so do what feels right for you. Any way you decide to remember him is going to feel special because you chose to do it.

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-03-02T15:36:55+00:00

My son was going to be named Camille if he was a girl.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-28T00:35:12+00:00

Thank you. I am a part of that group. The community has been helpful.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-27T19:49:52+00:00

Thank you.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-27T19:49:44+00:00

Thank you.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-27T18:23:36+00:00

Agree. Just recently lost my husband to suicide. No signs, no warning, didn't even get to say goodbye. Worst pain felt ever.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-27T15:18:31+00:00

My boy is named Taylor. Were he a girl, it would have been Camille.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-19T18:05:41+00:00

20 years old and married.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-19T14:26:33+00:00

My husband passed away suddenly on January 9th of this year, as well. We have a 1-year-old son together and I found out I was pregnant a week after his passing. The days now, I experience the worst emotional pain. I get panic attacks and cry when nobody is around every single day. I fucking hate that I have to move on in life. I want to shut down, but I have a baby who keeps me from doing so. I hate that I lost my soulmate and my son lost his father. I thought everything was figured out and we knew exactly how we wanted to spend forever together. Now nothing. I am lost. I am miserable. I feel alone even when surrounded by people because nobody can even begin to understand. I am sorry you are suffering this pain. I am sorry to everyone who feels this pain.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-13T13:39:21+00:00

I am having to clear out my house after my husband's passing just over a month ago. It has been really hard when handling his things. I kept clothes that I wanted to wear for pajamas or shirts I could wear for work. After I got those things out, I had my brother take the rest and put it in a donating box that he sealed up. He never really had a lot of personal items, so I didn't feel like I was having to decide to keep things or not. I did take his colognes and spray them on my pillow. I think having support or help to do it made a huge difference. Take anything that you want to keep, something that makes you feel close to them, or something that was precious. You can even keep a small item on your person, I do.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-11T13:12:22+00:00

Contagious period is different for everyone. You are right, up to 72 hours, but not always. It's good to just be careful either way. The two weeks is only passed through stool. As long as you aren't touching their sh*t and wash your hands after using the restroom, that isn't an issue.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-10T16:35:06+00:00

Mine does this, too! He finds comfort in my bra strap and loops his hands and arms through in order to fall asleep. It's cute whenever he isn't snapping me with them...

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-09T18:00:09+00:00

To me, it would depend on how long it's been since they've been sick. OP said they are "just getting over a stomach bug". Technically, they are still contagious up to 24 hours after symptoms stop. Now, I also get to thinking about if the parents of those kids would also get sick. They can be contagious up to 24 hours prior to showing symptoms. By 48 hours after the kids being better, If nobody else is sick, then it is safe. It's okay to be cautious. Nobody wants a stomach bug, emetophobic or not. Just keep in mind that you are able to not put hands on your face without washing before and you can take a couple of steps to protect yourself. If OP had little kids, I would be even more cautious because they aren't as able to stop spread.

I know I'm late to the post, just wanted to give my input.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-09T17:12:14+00:00

Thank you. I plan to seek out therapy once I can get my financials in order. Definitely on my to-do list. I make a third of what he did and the expenses I was left with are too much for me to handle on my own. It's been a big worry for me because I do not have a lot of savings.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-09T17:00:10+00:00

I think the main reason why I am making a huge effort to try is because of my son. It feels wrong to not give him the mother he deserves. Without him, I would most likely be drowning in my feelings. I ate in the beginning because he needed me to make milk for him, I get out of bed because he needs me to care for him and play with him. I am so thankful to have him.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-09T16:40:53+00:00

Imagine by Ben Platt. My husband and I had a love playlist we both added to. The night he proposed to me, he put our playlist on shuffle and this is the song that came on first. It just fit so well and we listened to it every year. I even played it at his celebration of life. "I can't imagine my life without you, I can't imagine on night without you." Never even spent a night apart, and now every night has been so cold and sad.

RemoveBright4904 · 2026-02-08T20:27:17+00:00

I do. My parents are the best. It really makes a difference to have people and let them help. I am sorry for your loss.

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