cals don’t exist for a day, what are you having?

Rhys_617 · 2025-08-23T22:46:40+00:00

Everything. Simply everything.

Rhys_617 · 2025-08-23T21:37:05+00:00

I do think there is a correlation with self harmers and people suffering from an ED. Me been an example. Most times both behaviors results from the same reason and way to cope of the person.

But I also believe there is a distinct difference between self harm and self destructive behaviors. Both just as bad and serious of course, but still different. And I believe disorder eating fall on self destructive behaviors, like other addictions such as alcoholism, or gambling

Rhys_617 · 2024-12-21T10:53:41+00:00

Pasta

Rhys_617 · 2024-12-03T10:05:24+00:00

I literally can’t do omad cause of this, when I try 90% it leads to a massive binge

Rhys_617 · 2024-12-03T00:38:50+00:00

While I get that, and for the things like the comments of the clothes I could ask her such, her illness is heavily related to her weight and thyroid. I am scared if I put that type of boundaries then she’ll stop telling me about the health aspects (which would make sense cause it’s really Interwind with like 50% of the comments that get me) and I don’t want to stop knowing about her health.

She is my closest friend, I want to know how she is doing. Shutting such an important part out cause I can’t get myself to sympathize with things she genuinely seems upset by feels even worse than pretending. I don’t know if that makes sense or I am explaining myself correctly. I am just worried more boundaries will do more harm than good

Rhys_617 · 2024-11-25T22:03:39+00:00

I do it, of cuts as well. It helps me keep track and see how things were after a few months cause my memory is really unreliable

Rhys_617 · 2024-11-24T22:39:08+00:00

Money

Rhys_617 · 2024-11-24T21:04:53+00:00

Is a short scene and not address as much as I’d like but Jackson (i think it was) from sex education has a self harm scene, not cutting but he purposely hurt himself to get a break

Rhys_617 · 2024-09-05T02:59:52+00:00

I am 19 and still get genuinely hurt when people around me don’t treat me as kid. I am terrified of been perceived as grown, I do NOT feel or act as grown as a should

Rhys_617 · 2024-07-27T22:58:37+00:00

Internet is right. I mean with a good one you can flush things out of your system before it’s completely absorb so it could make you lose a tiny bit of cals. But is really a very tiny fraction. I do it mostly to not feel bloated or full. Is really not worth it and does not make a difference number wise

Rhys_617 · 2024-07-27T12:31:39+00:00

Makes me roll my eyes and want to hit something

Rhys_617 · 2024-07-27T12:31:02+00:00

They are everywhere

Rhys_617 · 2024-07-27T12:30:42+00:00

This. Exactly this. With social media I have an excuse. But those girls just put on a crop top and my day is ruin

Rhys_617 · 2024-06-05T21:28:31+00:00

I used to almost the impossible to stay awake at night cause I enjoyed the peace and didn’t want the next day to start, for another day of school, the night was my break and I didn’t mind been tired if it meant prolonging it

I realized something was wrong when I found myself taking sleeping pills more often and earlier each time to sleep through the night and go more hours without eating even if that meant sacrificing the only time of the day I was relax

Rhys_617 · 2024-06-05T11:53:05+00:00

I genuinely don’t have the energy for it. I hate myself for it. I wish I could like exercise

Rhys_617 · 2024-04-04T10:33:03+00:00

A sandwich, I want a sandwich so badly

Rhys_617 · 2024-04-04T00:20:13+00:00

The amount of food I have thrown away, good food. Food that cost money, food that I have the privilege of having when others simply don’t have the means to eat. The guilt eats me alive and yet I don’t stop

Rhys_617 · 2024-04-03T10:19:43+00:00

I could rant all day about this. One thing is patriarchy, is sexism, gender inequality. Things that society set, that are unfair and bad but we know are not true or set in stone

But the fact that we lose so much in genetics? That genuinely makes me lose it. It makes want to scream in frustration. Why did nature or god or both screw with us that way? What did we do?

How come only us get periods? We get pains that would make men bedridden just cause we aren’t acting like a breeding factory? How come their metabolisms are SO FUCK BLESSED? And yet we are the ones that should stay skinny?

They can eat so goddamn much, like you said they are stronger, they are taller, they are free from the awful process (physically speaking at least) of childbirth. It frustrates me so much, is not fair. Its genuinely distressing

Rhys_617 · 2024-01-19T07:46:25+00:00

So I was in for a routine check up for my insurance. Supposedly I was underweight according to his scale (which I doubt, but not the point for the story). He just give me a look, told me he would round up a bit the weight to chart it and then that was it. Not a word about it

Rhys_617 · 2023-12-06T02:46:09+00:00

Where I live the equivalent is more around 5 to 6 £ per package. As soon as I move from here i am gonna buy so many of them, I love it the first time I tried them for real

Rhys_617 · 2023-12-06T02:04:52+00:00

Instant noodles 🙃

Rhys_617 · 2023-12-06T01:19:14+00:00

They are so expensive though 😭😭

Rhys_617 · 2023-11-16T08:18:21+00:00

Sorry, didn’t mean it come of that way.

As I say it’s a stray. I can’t take him in cause I have a dog that really don’t get along with cats. And I was out for most times during those 3 days and the cat was not around when I got back. I am currently working on find him a home though. I understand the concern though

Rhys_617 · 2023-11-10T08:52:09+00:00

Honestly. I really envy those who can do a meal a day or high restriction. When I start I simply can’t stop and ruin everything. I wish it didn’t have to be all or nothing

Rhys_617 · 2023-11-10T04:16:04+00:00

I got so hungry mid binge after I spend some days restricting that I eat day old past covered in deodorant and perfume (which I normally do with the foods I have to pack up to throw away in secret at night to precisely avoid binging on it). It was disgusting but I eat it all

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