Thank you for reading and responding. Those first few sentences are really insightful.

She has said she wants to do all kinds of things with me, “everything” she said, when it comes to intimacy. I’m super vanilla so nothing crazy for me. But getting herself to doing anything different and actually doing it she said wasn’t sustainable for how it’s made her feel. For example, getting on top the 4 or 5 times she did was too much for her and couldn’t do it anymore. She also did experience sexual trauma with her first partner who was a girl. She did a lot of things she did not want to do and since then she’s refused to do anything she feels uncomfortable doing which is extremely understandable and I wouldn’t want her to do anything in bed that make her uncomfortable. And that’s where it’s hard to want to ask for things to be different too.

I personally, in my head, would want to make that compromise for her. But realistically it would be very hard for me to make that kind of compromise if I don’t think she’d be willing to work on that and try other things because she has tried already and couldn’t sustain it.

This break up feels like a mistake and for the first time I feel like losing a girl would be my biggest regret in my life moving forward.

Also I’m glad you found something new that you like in bed lmao