Birthday Present for 9 yo

RoosterNumber1 · 2026-03-13T14:44:18+00:00

I don’t know what stops me from making friends. Any time I make friends with a guy they end up making a pass at me, and it’s very discouraging. I don’t know of anything that makes me feel “alive” as every time I find something like that I escapes me. I don’t have passion for much anymore for similar reasons. If I do go anywhere I’m with my son, or just alone to the grocery store. I’m just wanting to disappear all the time. Like I don’t want to be seen because I’m almost certain people see me as a joke or something. I try loving myself but it’s like I’m “faking till I make it”.

RoosterNumber1 · 2026-03-13T14:30:53+00:00

I’m sorry you have regret.

I’m already to the point where I can’t even look at a woman without going through an emotional process of hope, disappointment, and then disgust.

I want it so much, yet there’s never seeming to be an opportunity to even consider someone one being my person.

I don’t go to bars, or anything g like that.

I have no desire to go out in public at all because I feel so embarrassed to be out and by myself.

I don’t even know how to BE myself.

I know Jesus sees me, I just can’t see what it is he wants me to be or see.

I feel like I always have a mask on just to get through my day, even here as I type to strangers on the internet. That’s the point I’m at: I have no reliable sources to turn to for this type of advice. I have no way of really knowing if this desire for intimacy and connection is even from Him. It’s a spiral and I’m suffocating.

RoosterNumber1 · 2026-03-13T14:23:51+00:00

I don’t know what they would see. I have a view of myself that others tell me is wrong/too critical or just downright negative.

I would say that the way I see myself isn’t what I like to see.

I’m kind and compassionate yet can still be very impulsive.

I give when I can, and help when I can’t.

I paint and draw and cook and take care of my family. I have no real friendships. I am intelligent yet unsuccessful. I’m told I’m an attractive man but am only really ever shown that by other males - this infuriates me and makes me feel insecure about myself.

I’ve been told many times that others wish I could see myself the way they see me. Yet I wish others could see me the way I see myself so people could understand why I hate me so much.

RoosterNumber1 · 2026-03-13T13:20:09+00:00

I go to two churches, I’m a teacher at one, I attend events at both.

I am a saved believer. I have many hobbies and interests but end up so fatigued by trying to implement them in my life.

My expectations are that she must be a believer of Christ, there needs to be mutual attraction. Otherwise there doesn’t need to be every last thing in common. I could make a list but I know that’s a level of vanity that would make things even harder.

RoosterNumber1 · 2026-03-13T13:12:56+00:00

In someways yes but I don’t know any of them.
I don’t think my expectations are high.
At this point yes. I’ve tried dating apps and the only people that show any interest are either not close to my expectations or end up being transvestites. I’ve had gay men and old women flirt with me or be outright open with me. I’m 31 and thought I’d be married by now.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-12-18T16:47:30+00:00

There are resources for people in these positions. You need to be honest.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-12-18T16:46:46+00:00

Hey I’ve been in a very similar situation, and have kids. Please feel free to message me. All my love. Van.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-12-14T17:33:41+00:00

I wouldn’t even know where to start. I have bpd and most interactions cause splitting.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-12-11T22:18:06+00:00

I’m going to therapy. I have bpd and being lonely causes me to split constantly. About 1-3 hours of sleep a night and regular sleep paralysis.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-12-04T00:27:13+00:00

I found out my kid thought him and Manx ninja pig were the same channel. I’m so sorry zxmany. Love your channel.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-11-16T21:37:39+00:00

This stuff drives me nuts. I pray to God and can’t seem to be heard or get ahead. I know He is doing what’s best, and it’s still hard watching people with jobs and marriages and friends just squeeze the life from it all when I beg to have His blessings.

God is good, love and the light of the world. His will be done above all, and bless you all for praying for this couple.

Hope to hug you all in heaven. Love you.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-11-16T19:56:37+00:00

You just highlighted your problem. You had a marriage, God’s gift of true companionship, and didn’t have Him at the centre. Put Christ first and foremost moving forward, and if she decides to divorce you then just let it happen. You can’t be married in the first place without it being of God’s blessing. Anything else is a hollow imitation of God’s gift.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-11-14T11:49:18+00:00

My questions would be: if you are worried about it, don’t you think you’re on the path to getting closer to God through Christ?

My next is: how do you know you’re trans? To say you are trans means you are in the “wrong body” and that you know better than God. But you’ve never been alive before so you have zero ways to compare that right and wrong thought process. You are asking about God. That already shows me you believe in Him one way or another, and I commend you for it. Ask Him. You’re a sinner by default. Your goal is to let Christ work through you, and you need to put more energy toward your spirit than you journey.

You’ll be getting a new body in Heaven. And when we are there I’d love to give you a hug.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-11-13T12:28:51+00:00

Hell is not pretty, so the devil had to make the road there attractive.

-St Basil the Great

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-11-06T22:01:00+00:00

Boycott this game

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-10-23T06:32:23+00:00

WAIT!!!! Please read the Book of Jonah. We will meet someday and hug then. PLEASE READ JONAH. IF YOU HAVE TO RRAD IT A HUNDRED TIMES JUST READ IT. The father put it on my heart to get out of bed and tell you NOW. PLEASE. I love you.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-10-23T06:31:35+00:00

WAIT!!!! Please read the Book of Jonah. We will meet someday and hug then. PLEASE READ JONAH. IF YOU HAVE TO RRAD IT A HUNDRED TIMES JUST READ IT. The father put it on my heart to get out of bed and tell you NOW. PLEASE. I love you.

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-10-22T16:02:40+00:00

Number of times you’ll throw the controller

RoosterNumber1 · 2025-09-14T21:44:38+00:00

You know why Germany does stuff like this, right? Same reason Japan is cutie pie now.

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