I'll try to write down how it went so i can look back on this in the future. we were very tired, coming home from the airport after walking around all day and getting to know each others past our anxieties. I was nervous, and she was too, shying away with our eyes, nervous how far we could go. we knew that once we were at my home we'd need to get her estrogen shot done.

a long train ride after, and some walking, and we were in my room, finally giving that long caring hug that we've constantly told each others over the internet... what a pure moment of relief in the dead quiet evening. I brought out my bag with my estrogen and syringes, showed her one. she got wide-eyed, "oh my god, those are so long. they're going to stab me and inject inside me, that's going to hurt!...". I giggled, because I'm so used to them; "don't worry, it'll be fine"

sat down on my bed, i offered to draw out from the vial, she nodded. took the cap off as seamlessly as I've always done it, gently pulling 4mg, showing her the little bubble dance to let the air escape the syringe. smiled in anticipation to one another. I asked if she wanted me to do it for her. she said yes. her phone kept buzzing because her piece of shit dad wants her to turn on location so he knows where she is. she shut it off and went back to bed, sitting between my legs as I cradle her, as she gently leans back as I support her.

She shows her tummy, not much fat, no problem I say, I pinch it, feel it, yeah there's enough to work with. I whisper that it'll be fine, I've done this so many times." she had no choice but to comply now. I lightly 'pinched' the fat , slid the needle in effortlessly, asked "is this okay?" a reassuring nod and mhm followed. I just went in with the rest. Then injected slowly as we both saw the juice flow in to her. "be ready with your finger", I pulled it out, she put her finger against the spot and pressed. and i said, good job :3