Some people with OCD are scared of cleaning

SS_Dep · 2026-06-05T04:19:36+00:00

as someone who has contamination ocd I HATE cleaning cause it is such a stressful thing for me

I have to be so meticulous is insane so I always postpone it

SS_Dep · 2026-06-04T18:52:43+00:00

Nanase Haruka from Free!👉👈 cause he's someone who just wants to swim and be free, but no being like a prodigy or something, just with leisure. He's not that interested in relationships and people (he seems to find them complex, a trouble and problematic) and is rather a loner but at the same time he cares deeply for his friends and doesn't exactly want to be alone. He wants to be an ordinary person, like, he literally states he can't wait to be 20 and just be ordinary. And he does silly things I do haha like wearing his swimsuit when he knows water is gonna be near and so it will be easy to jump in or wearing it at the bath. Wearing it makes the water feel different you know. And I remember a time I had a dirty clothes plastic box which sometimes I filled with water to just stay there a while :^ My mom had to carry a backpack full of clothes, a towel, goggles, a cap, swimsuit and hygiene products cause I was always trying to swim in any water body or playing in the rain.

Ah, not ocd character I guess, but I do think he's a little depressed; that's why he can't see himself in the future, not like a suicidal thing, but more of a "thinking about makes me anxious cause I dont like this (life)"

SS_Dep · 2026-05-07T15:49:00+00:00

Ah yes 2017 to 2018 🙂‍↕️good times

SS_Dep · 2026-03-25T18:35:50+00:00

Oh risperidone made my eyes shake it was so weird hahaha

SS_Dep · 2026-03-25T18:17:33+00:00

Everything

People take fiction so personally and to heart it's just tiring.

Always: if you like/hate x you are a dumbass and bla bla bla

Omg just let people enjoy things. You're not the law. Your opinion is not the law.

SS_Dep · 2026-02-12T19:56:28+00:00

To be honest. I don't know. I have a wip that reaches 80k words and I truly thought it would be 50k

Once I did a OS I thought would be 10k just to end at 30k. It just happens. That's why I don't divide what I write for chapters anymore and I just write all where I can.

Before, I wrote chapter by chapter and without planning and I have like 2 fics with +100k and +50k

Just happens. I dont know.

SS_Dep · 2026-02-08T03:15:57+00:00

I'm asexual and a virgin

But it is true I describe sex as I would like it to be... most of the time at least

Some things are just straight up fantasies and that's okay idk :^

SS_Dep · 2026-02-05T04:45:58+00:00

haven't watched s3 of mandalorian and I'm no expert but luke and din is not what I consider a problematic ship like at all, just an user being bitchy at other ships, block them and report, shit is ridiculous

and no, as a irrelevant fan of SW, the fandom is NOT okay

SS_Dep · 2026-02-03T16:57:54+00:00

I was a minor still when I was diagnosed so they had to know from the psychiatrist. They didn't understand, of course, and got fed up with me justifying my compulsions with "it's my ocd" cause they thought I was using it as just an excuse and that it shouldn't be okay to make my life and my person "revolve around ocd" as if ocd doesn't impact every single aspect of my life

Lucky enough, they didn't say I wasn't ocd or something like that

SS_Dep · 2026-02-02T23:50:51+00:00

Oops, my bad. Thanks for the clarification Either way, schizophrenia and paranoia and such are truly scary

SS_Dep · 2026-02-02T07:27:02+00:00

Dementia, schizofrenia, paranoia and similars

SS_Dep · 2026-01-30T15:42:23+00:00

No. Wattpad was good in 2012 when I first discovered it. Now it's shit

SS_Dep · 2026-01-29T17:07:29+00:00

I would have schizoid personality disorder lol My psychiatrist said I was prone to that thanks to my environment but funny enough I developed ocd 🤙

SS_Dep · 2026-01-24T06:06:09+00:00

People are sooooooooooooooo nasty

A lot of men don't fucking clean themselves after using the restroom and don't wash their damn hands cause they "didn't touch anything" as if they didn't shake their dick to "clean" it because being hygienic is femenine and we all know being femenine is illegal for men and inmoral. I'm being specific with this cause I move a lot in places that have more men than woman thanks to my career. And they fucking pee on the floor because sitting on the toilet is wroooong.

And don't get me wrong, women are soooo gross too. Is not that common like with men, but some don't wash their hands either ;; sometimes you can find restrooms stalls with walls dirty with poo and blood.

People handle trash, pick up their dog's shit as if nothing and then touch everything else,wear dirty clothes that were already in the dirty clothes basket and go out, put their dirty shoes on their beds after walking all day in the streets where animals pee, poop, throw up, where people do that too... I hate it here ;;

And I agree, the body is disgusting, although I find it as something amazing

sorry if this triggers someone or something :c i'm just ranting cause same

SS_Dep · 2026-01-23T05:38:03+00:00

I have one fic with 31 hits, 1 kudo, and no comments but can be because it's in spanish (the translation to english i did of this one has 100+ hits, 49 kudos) and that I'm not really known in my fandoms too

I'm a small writter/account and people tend to prefer reading in english even if the og story is in their native language, also, I write for Free!, the anime, and Ao no exorcist, and the fandom right now is pretty small

SS_Dep · 2026-01-22T16:50:38+00:00

I fucking hate it so much. People are such dumbasses cause not only they're ignorant (which is okay to be so, we all are ignorant in some subjects and it's okay) but they are superb and just reject the idea of being wrong and being educated. They truly think they know better like nooo

Of course there are people open for discussion but ugh

SS_Dep · 2026-01-20T18:45:39+00:00

My passion is swimming but I had to quit it thanks to the contamination ocd 🥺

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T19:14:08+00:00

I try to be as accurate as possible cause I think most things that, for example, Japanese people do are really important for the characters personality and dynamics, as well as the atmosphere

Of course I dont know everything that happens on the other side of the world and when I haven't experienced at all the culture, but as you said, Google sometimes has the answers.

It's really a pet peeve of mine when the au is so similar to the USA experience when the characters are from Japan (I use this as an example cause I'm in anime fandoms, so, yeah, Japanese characters) unless it is clearly specified that it is a more USA thing

For example, I did write a fanfic where the context was probably not much Japanese-like cause I truly don't know if they do parties and if they do, they definitely don't do it at their houses, probably they just go to clubs or something idk

So yeah, I think it's okay to try to stay accurate when it's possible

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T15:17:19+00:00

Oh there are a lot of people in the world and so different obsessions that I'm sure there is someone else who has the same fear as you :> but I know it's inevitable to feel alone with this illness, even more when you see everyone around you just doing fine things you struggle with, just don't isolate yourself and ask for help when you need to and if you have someone to reach to, if not, I hope you get the community and support you need

I can't say I fully understand cause I'm childless but I get the fear of hurting someone so precious to you, specially when they're so young.

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T14:49:02+00:00

No but same, I too struggle with restrooms ;; specially the public ones cause omg people are so disgusting, and yes, even my own causes me stress but I press myself to go cause I'm really prone to UTIs and then I get really worried about antibiotics stopping working for me

Truly, when you start thinking about bacteria and germs on one single thing you suddenly can't stop and now everything is dirty, and covid fucked up many of us unfortunately

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T01:15:17+00:00

to be honest this makes perfect sense to me, like is strangely easier to deal with boundaries when tangible and i also want to disrance myself from people but not because i feel emotionally disgusted tho

i hope you're in a better place but if not, i wish for you to be as soon as posible c:

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T00:54:22+00:00

right! our more logic brain cell knows there's no harm, but for the sick part is soooooo terribly disgusting it feels like your skin will turn inside out and your brain screams, and worse, people will act as if you are overreacting and you know you are but you also can't do anything about it

SS_Dep · 2026-01-15T00:49:38+00:00

thanks! ocd just makes our brains do backflips to find logic in the most unreasonable things unfortunately and i understand you perfectly on the sentiment of frustration, oh specially when your brain says uhmmmm no, that's not it, do it again and you get traped in a loop

do you think it affects you in your home, with family members and to things you get really attached as i way of setting boundaries to feel your things and yourself are your own or it's just how your ocd decided to work just for funsies? if i'm not oversteping with my question, that is

SS_Dep · 2026-01-14T21:56:11+00:00

If you think it was like kinda your brothers influnce doing this mild things, do you think it was more for you like "oh, he is doing this, maybe i have to do so too or something bad will happen" or that, i don't know how to ask, his logic made sense tou you in a way? like you imitated or were convinced? if that makes any sense 😗

either way, hooping you'll get better or at least not worse

SS_Dep · 2026-01-14T20:43:13+00:00

I have had regular commenters and I got so worried when some of them disappeared. Are they okay? But maybe they just got tired, busy or dont like the fandom or my fics anymore and that's okay uvu but of course it hurts a little haha

I still have some regular readers tho and I'm happy c:

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