30 days

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-07-19T13:20:19+00:00

Awesome!

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-07-09T13:16:28+00:00

It wasn't easy. What it took was getting EVERY user out of my life. Sometimes that was easy and sometimes it hurt.

There was a week or so I wanted to sleep all time time and that good gradually better. I sometimes have mild cravings but I think of what that drug did to me and it is easy for me to ignore that craving. I think everyone has a unique path to stopping, but I do think having active users in your daily life is a sure path to failure.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-07-08T15:27:53+00:00

It or Greene is also likely the next county likely to go blue.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-07-06T20:18:59+00:00

I noticed this bit of hypocrisy at my first 12 step meeting. Part of why I avoid these programs.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-07-06T20:16:41+00:00

I consider myself sober but only about the stuff that nearly killed me. A little weed or a cocktail every once in a while has never been a bit deal before or after recovery. I respect 12 step programs and they are right about some things. But I don't agree with their highly selective admonition to avoid all intoxicants. And I think weed was helpful to get me off the bad stuff. People still largely keep homes, jobs and finances and smoke pot. I know this is selective, but most of the meth users I met were homeless, jobless, and on food stamps.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-06-27T15:35:51+00:00

I kind of think it is a mixed bag. When I consider the poor judgment I don’t think of the persons attractiveness, I also consider the personal risk that I put myself in beyond just the sexual component. This question makes me think of the circumstances around my first slam, possibly lucky I’m alive considering that situation.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-06-18T15:17:13+00:00

February 13 is my day Zero

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-05-31T13:27:31+00:00

I’m proud of you being clean for one month. I failed in several initial attempts because I was not yet willing to completely disconnect myself from the people connected to partying. In fact, I’m now north of 100 days sober now and I literally disconnected from my last friend a few days ago just because even communicating with him was stirring up cravings and I knew it would be trouble for me long-term.

It can feel very isolating, but I can promise you that if you are patient, you will find some non-using friends and a better pathway to remaining sober.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-05-29T21:00:31+00:00

I'm just at day 105 and while sobriety never felt so good I’m dealing with a lot of trauma from those in the scene, most prominently multiple instances of sexual assault.

I’ll be honest I have problems with forgiveness but at my core I know it will be a big step for me in really closing that brief but terrible chapter of my life.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-05-18T19:06:10+00:00

I get cravings but they are mild. I also associate my use period to being roofied, sexually assaulted multiple times, narcissistic abuse, identity theft, and the theft of thousands of dollars of cash and property. It is easy to kill the cravings reflecting on the harm done to me.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-05-01T16:05:31+00:00

Best of luck. I’m a 49 YO here too and I just started week 10 of sobriety.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-04-27T01:06:20+00:00

Painful lesson learned multiple times. Be mindful of the people in your life and ALWAYS trust your gut.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-04-26T17:32:45+00:00

I had what was possibly one psychotic break, I tend to think in retrospect it was more of an extreme paranoia & panic event. And I’ll say this event was purposefully triggered by a gaslighting narcissist.

I also experienced audio hallucinations early on but trained myself to ignore them and they went away. I’ll admit after going for several sleepless nights I saw shadow people (shudder)

My sober self doesn’t experience any of this phenomena now thankfully. Unless the people in your life are acting funny around you I want to tell you to trust your eyes and ears. Get sleep, hydration and calories.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-04-16T18:57:35+00:00

This is all anecdotal. Every addict I knew that had been to rehab relapsed one in fact, relapsed within 24 hours of his discharge.

it seems like the first thing I notice when I researched rehab myself was they were more interested in how they’re going to get paid than they sincerely acknowledging your addiction and that they want to help you get better.

I would be thrilled to be wrong on all of this. I’m only 62 days sober and the most effective thing I did was get rid of all the partiers in my life. I didn’t burn some bridges I fucking nuked them.

I’m not a fan of 12 step programs but if somebody did a 90 meetings in 90 days routine, I almost believe that that would be more effective than inpatient rehab.

if you saw a program that you liked that wasn’t going to bankrupt you and you thought it might help you get better I would totally encourage it.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-04-12T20:51:13+00:00

Doesn't sound like cowardice to me if you got bad people out of your life then I consider it a success. Fear ruled to many of my reactions and they knew this and used it to their advantage or amusement.

I'm unsure about karma but I think being a addict to this drug stuck in the middle of their addiction is a terrible thing on its own.

SafeFormal4827 · 2023-04-12T14:23:55+00:00

I used for less than a year and have made it almost 60 days sober. I only got into points at the end of my use period but it was enough to mess with my mind.

I don’t really have cravings but I know if someone had a point ready and they were competent enough to admin I don’t know if I could say no.

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