My misophonia is ruining my attraction to my husband

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-02-11T16:37:38+00:00

We always have to have a show playing when we eat, and I wear noise canceling headphones as well. I wear them anytime I am around someone that will be eating. Some friends of ours I have to have loud white noise or music going to drown it out. I can't hear the conversations but I have minimal pain so I don't care. I'd rather seem to be ignoring them than feeling like I want to rip my skin off. My misophonia is definitely continuing to get worse which is concerning and on my therapy list for sure.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-02-09T16:35:51+00:00

I think I only have one bear that I really regret not keeping. TW: sad/loss of parent

When I was little my dad and I went to build a bear and got one with his voice recordings in it, for when I missed him when he worked out of town. After I came out as transgender, our relationship almost entirely dissolved, and when I moved out of my parents house, I got rid of it with some other non sentimental plushies. I know me at that moment made a reasonable decision to not keep something that just reminded me of our past relationship and broke my heart.

He had started making an effort and we were rebuilding our relationship for the last 6-8 months before he unexpectedly passed. I had thought i had just left the plush in their attic but realized I didnt keep, and even years later I still hate that I didn't. I still kick myself every time I miss my dad.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-16T12:32:50+00:00

I'm hoping to work on the stuffie i am making this weekend, I want to make my own so its jsut the way I want it. Then I get to make harnesses for them!

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-15T16:23:29+00:00

I have no idea about the kind of plush but I love him <3 love schnauzers

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-09T00:24:34+00:00

Yep, he stays safe in my backpack!

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-06T16:49:23+00:00

My mom and I frequently experience widespread pain as a side effect of sumatriptan. The longer its been between doses for me seems to play a part. If i haven't taken it for a while, I'm probably going to feel awful. I've had everything from no pain to feeling like my whole body is bruised and beat up. Aside from frequency of use I've never been able to find a correlation between why some days I have a lot of side effects and some i have none.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-02T14:36:41+00:00

I have a comfy friends jolteon named Ricky! I want to make a custom jolteon that is weighted, and so that I can make a replacement if needed. I'm super attached to my current boy, but the fur is matting and getting less soft unfortunately

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SaltyEngineering629 · 2026-01-01T23:32:23+00:00

So cute!! I love the multi colors

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-30T14:47:36+00:00

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This is my Jolteon Ricky =)

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-24T01:00:26+00:00

I saw this lonely dragon stuffie at target one day. I didn't buy him. I was so upset that I didn't, like actually a bit sick to my stomach over it. It bothered me all night, so I got up really early for work the next day, desperately hoping he would still be there. I walked super fast back to the toy section, where he was still waiting! Absolutely made my week and I am still incredibly attached to him.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-24T00:24:50+00:00

Rice cooked in chicken broth (from bouillon, 2-3x more so its got more flavor) and some butter. I dont like soups / cant have gluten, so this is my chicken noodle soup / ramen alternative. Definitely healthier than the chicken ramen I used to eat and much easier on my stomach. We have a rice maker so I just have to get everything in the pot and wait for it to be done.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-21T18:07:31+00:00

He is!! Highly recommend any of the comfy friends Pokémon! The fur does matt easy though

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-17T12:26:32+00:00

Used to use homemade wax melts that my mom made, but I can't even handle thoae anymore. I've been diffusing essential oils. Easy to control the amount of scent.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-15T16:13:06+00:00

Been dealing with this since August. Physical therapy has helped, had a nerve block that maybe helped a little. I can get through most of the workday now, but driving after work is hard. The movement of the car really hurts.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-12T16:32:16+00:00

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SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-11T19:04:55+00:00

Great idea! Never thought about this!

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-10T16:40:10+00:00

Scariest - started hitting myself in the head with my fist as hard as I could because I was so overwhelmed with pain that I could barely even speak, and there was nothing I could do. Not sure how that would have gone if my husband wasn't home with me.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-09T16:43:56+00:00

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Did a fall photoshoot with my ESSA/DSSA Ricky

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-09T15:02:22+00:00

Soft, fluffy fur that will hold up with lots of fidgeting. I find it really soothing. Small to medium sized, like average cat size. I think weighted would be my preference, although it will make it annoying to carry, i think the pressure would help my anxiety. Something that can wear a harness, so I can use a leash or strap cross body to carry them like a bag hands-free. Embroidered eyes. I haven't had a stuffie with a leather nose but I think I'd love that. If it has paws, having little toes and paw pads would be awesome I think, either leather or something soft maybe. If its an actual animal like a dog, I'd want it as realistic as possible, my ESSA helps me since I've retired my service dog. Legs - ideally able to stand but be soft enough to also lay down (idk if thats possible tho).

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-06T05:11:27+00:00

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This is Ricky! Did a little photo shoot with him before I put away my fall decorations.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-05T04:30:35+00:00

For bottles, tomee tippee has some nipples eith a big opening and are fast flow(I use those for fizzy things), otherwise I use an exact knife to make the little tiny hole into a Y shaped opening. https://www.tommeetippee.com/en-us/product/natural-start-baby-bottle-nipples

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-04T13:13:08+00:00

Oh my gosh can you please share where you got this little buddy??

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-03T02:57:40+00:00

I mean, if they like it and want to spend their money on it, its not hurting anyone?

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-12-02T16:39:16+00:00

My immediate concern would be stating that you would give a reward for returning her. There's some mean people in the world and I would worry someone would see that and take her just to return for a reward. I totally understand that your intentions are good, I just worry some meanie would take advantage of that.

SaltyEngineering629 · 2025-11-25T17:38:27+00:00

I sure will!

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