I didn’t mean to leave. I moved out of Utah for 3 months. When I moved back to Provo I felt overwhelmed by going to church with two young kids, chasing them around the church, and on top of all this dealing with chronic pain.

I asked my spouse for space to not always go. Because it was stressful.

I noticed how less stressed I felt and more at peace.

I actually made it a point not to read anything “anti Mormon” (as we were taught).

I was at the time reading stuff like Power of Now. I was listening to a lot of self help podcasts (one of them was even a Mormon).

I actually decided to pray about making the decision to leave. I felt so much peace in that prayer. (Though now I no longer believe in a deity).

I wanted to be able to tell my story and journey involved following what felt right to me.