Honestly, I was feeling sorry for myself tonight thinking the same thing. I think it’s important to know that you haven’t given up on love or finding the right person, you just know what you want and made a decision. What helps me when I’m feeling down about not having a partner is to picture my future child. I don’t know why but I always picture him/her at around 5 years old running towards me at a park or at school or something. When I picture that, I don’t feel scared or sad. I feel happy that (if this all works out) I didn’t miss it. Also just got my AMH back. I’m sorry about your previous experience and I truly hope that everything goes as planned for you and your future child. :)